I have never felt this way.., ..towards a guy before Options

[seremela_culnamo]

I'm sorry I'm posting it here, too. I posted it in the Girl's Locker Room, but like ch33sylici0us suggested, this should be in the relationships room. Well, here it is! I just added a tiny bit in the end.

To the readers,

If you're busy right now, I suggest coming back later & I will be glad to hear what you will have to say. BUT if you have nothing better to do & want to hear about my guy problems, sit back, take over your shoes [or socks] with a nice cool Nestea in hand =]

Anyway, every girl has guy problems. But have you ever felt completely different towards a certain guy? I sure do. It's probably due to the fact that for once, unlike all my previous crushes, I actually try to get to know him by talking to him. Not having my friends tell me about his personality instead. Then a get a fleating feeling each time he actually says something back. It's just that I don't expect him to do so, since almost the entire semester has went by, and recently, that's when we started talking to one another. Actually, it was me who started talking first.

I try to not make things obvious. Like every once in awhile, I would pretend to be busy with or looking for something. I hope that makes it less obvious, since whenever we talk, any eye contact would just..stone me or soemthing. So I just look away quickly.

I seriously don't know what's going on. We are classmates, but I want to be a friend of his first. But whenever we talk, we just avoid looking at one another. Well, that's usually me. Whereas he would do that at times. What really bothers me is I don't know if we would even be classified as "friends". At times, when I talk or say something, he would go completely silent and bend his head down. That really confuses me. But whenever I'm not talking to him or looking in another direction, I could sometimes feel his eyes are on me or something. But when I turn around, it seems as though he was just starring blankly at the blackboard. I don't know. I haven't caught him yet.

Anyway, today I dressed up in a totally different wardrobe. I usually wear dark coloured clothing. Usually black. Looks like something that I just pick out of my closet, and whatever I see first, I will throw it on. What I wore today even surprised my friends: a tank-top and a light coloured dress with flowers [totally not me]. I don't even know why. I just felt like it today and probably because I wanted to see some bright colours, after my big depression yesterday [not to do with him..really]. But yea. So this what happens in class:

Like every Friday when it's a good weather, it has became a tradition for students to skip. I felt a bit down because he wasn't there for the first 5 minutes, so I already assumed that he wouldn't be there today. Then all of a sudden, I heard my friend whispering something [Go away!] I turned around and it was him. He glanced at me, noticed that I was starring at him, and quickly looks away. Next thing I knew, he comes in and sits diagonally across from me. I don't know what's going on.

Sometimes I feel like he wants to become friends. But at other times, it feels like he doesn't even want to know me or something. Everyday when he walks pass, I just wish I can say with a bright cheerful voice, "Hey *his name*". But I'm just way too shy to do that. The only times when we can actually talk is usually during Friday afternoons [hardly anyone is in class because they skip on Fridays], when he comes up to my friend & for help or something, or at the beginning of class when it's a group thing. Eitherwise, we wouldn't. We would talk to everyone, but not to one another.

Any advice or what may be going on? My friends always try to help and all. But I don't want to get advice from them because they would say stuff that might not be true. Just as long as it encourages me and gets my hopes up. So I'm asking people online now, to take things in from a different point of view. I want a more likely realistic truth, and not a blended truth.

- elementopia