im confused and heartbroken, please help Options

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my past reltaionship went as i had dreamed...i thought i found my one and only...hes 2 years older and we jus clicked rite away. he was the sweetest guy and eveyrthing as so perfect. we didnt see each other eveyrday cuz he lived in morristown which is 45 min away from me. but when we did see each other it was jus....ugh the butterflies in my stomach came back everytime...eveyrtime...and you know he would come up in the mornin sometimes too early for me so id wake up and get the door in sweats n my hair all tore up and he still said i was beautiful which made me love him even more...even tho he didnt have the money he paid for mostly eveyrthing. of course i wanted to pay cuz i thought it was ridiculous but no he insisted. we were dating for about a yr. he wasnt too fond of some of my friends but they tried to get along and it all worked out ok. sometimes he had a temper which i didnt understand where it came from but it bothered me, but i forgot that it could be the environment he lives in. his family wasnt too pleasant but thats just me....BUT eventually i guess he got bored of me so he went on to somehting younger...something 3 yrs younger than me...im 18 thats disgusting, and i swear when i found out from that girl i was throwing up. but of course he never explained why to me so he moved away to pennsylvania and calls once in a while to see how im doing thinking we'll get back together...but i mean yes i still love him...should i trust him enough to do it all over again? is it worth it?