waters of despair</3, poem about jealousy, broken hearts, loss Options

[shattered soul]

Waters of Despair

It’s those moments, where
It’s like nothing even matters
Anymore, and then the air
Has never felt so cold, and
So empty, and the dry, dry
Feeling inside gets even drier,
And everything around me
Disappears, just vanishes, and
It’s just me, you, and the one
I was replaced by, and I can’t
Help but look, just look, as
Every word said grows louder
And louder, and my heart hurts
More, and more, and it’s too
Heartless, the way you’ll walk
Away, without a good-bye,
Like I never had a place
In the world, and you’d leave
And make her seem like
A beautiful goddess, so special
And precious, and worth all
The world to you, and I just
Happen to remember, how she
Used to be me, and now I’m
Just there, but not particularly
There, because you don’t see me,
And then once again, I remember
How you’d do so much to see
Me, to make me feel like there’s
Sunshine, all around me, but that
Was before, not now, and they say
You’re not worth it, but somehow
I know that’ll never make a
Difference, because I could never
Accept that, you meant too much,
Yet I took you for granted, now
You’re gone, and it’s too much, and it’s
Enough, to break my heart, more
Painful, than getting stabbed
In the back, by a comrade, more
Painful than the death of anyone,
And all I can do, is pretend
That I’m not fazed by this, and
Smile like I’ve just been blessed
By an angel, but only God and I,
Know what’s inside, and what’s
Inside, are waves of jealousy,
An ocean of pain, and I’m slowly,
Slowly being engulfed by these
Waters of unbelievable despair.

It's a bit long, but this is the only poem I've ever written that actually came straight from heart. All my other poems seemed fake, and the reason why this one meant so much is because ... it's real. I have a best friend, his name is Brian, and we've been best friends for over two years. We used to have feelings for each other, but we figured it was best to just stay friends. Lately it feels like we're rapidly growing apart, it seems like this other girl has replaced me as his best friend, and I don't know what to do ... so I wrote this to give off some emotions.

Please read <3