Erhmm my stupid life? xD Options

[this__love]

i'm crying right now and I don't want any pity. I just feel like typing okay? Don't tell me to feel better either. o_o;; Internet sympathy doesn't do anything. Anyways, I'm so stupid. You know what? I've always wanted an enemy. So there's this guy that's really nice right? And I start being mean to him when all he ever wanted was friendship. He's close to my best friend and what-so-ever. And I guess I just pissed him off over the limit so now he is my enemy. Now I feel hated and it hurts. o_o;; Don't tell me to talk to him because I'm not going to. I guess he was just like a close friend too? Now he's kinda like out of my life and still in my best friend's life o_o; and he avoids me because I usually just fight with him? I don't know. I don't like him, that's for sure. How do I apologize.. it really really hurts to feel hated.. I never felt hated before.. I never was avoided before either.. why am I so stupid.. I want to be his friend. ><;; How do I fix this..? Should I.. start by apologizing? If you were me.. what would you do..?