wishes from the heart, to no one/everyone in particular Options

[*islandgirl4eva*]

There are times when I really hate being a "deep" person. I pour out my heart and soul to people who, in turn, look at me as if I've just sprouted a third breast. What makes it even worse is that I expect feedback. Something to let me know that I'm heard and appreciated, and it is seldom that I get that satisfaction. I feel like such a token citizen. That one girl in the group who's just there to fill in the gap. The one who no one dares talk to, for she'd confuse you with her $50, SAT words and try to charm the pants off of you with her warm hugs and and doting compliments. I'm not a kiss-ass, I'm not a genius, I'm me. I love to get hugs and I love giving them even more. I love sitting down with someone and having a conversation of substance. I love having that one special person to hold my hand and see me as something to be cherished, not just another statistic.

It bothers me that I seek solace in seeing my words span across a computer screen, but for now, it'll have to do. I wish there were a way I could stop being such a damn drama queen and let this all go. Just look at myself and be happy with what I see...what I feel. I don't see that day coming anytime soon. In the meantime, let the flood gates open. I'll always be there for people to come to when they need love and support. I'll be your rock if you need me to be. Let me be your shoulder to cry on. I really don't mind. The only selfish thing I'd like to ask is that someday I have someone like that too.