I Lost My Best Friend Today, What should I do? Options

[REBELnDISGUISE]

No one ever told me life ain't fair, that people won't always be there. But I've learned that now from first hand expeirence. Today on 7/25/05... something horrible happened. No a family member did not die, no I was not in some freak accidence where I got really messed up...But something close to it. The person who was my best friend just left. It started awhile ago when something happened to her. Some personal issue which she would not tell me. So I thought... wow...some best friend eh? Who doesn't tell me when something is bothering her. So I tried to make her jealous to get her to fess up. I told her that I replaced her someone else named Jennifer Li. Which is similar to Jennifer Jung I guess. Well...then we stopped talking. She still would not tell me. So I took her off my buddylist cause I couldn't stand to look at her SN. But then I forgot I did that and since then I've thought she blocked me. So I waited till today to fix everything. But by that time it was already to late. She said we should just be friends. Then she said we shouldn't talk at all. Losing her is like losing a family member of mine that was really close to me. In a way...I did consider her family. Which sounds stupid I know...But I did. Her and I went through a lot together. We went to the movies. When ever I had a date we would double. We told eachother everything. Or so I thought. We would always comfort each other by telling one another that it's okay...it's their lose...stuff like that. When ever either of us needed someone to talk to...we had each other. Now she goes and do something like this. I can ruin her friendship like that with Cheryl Ng. I could tell her all the things Jennifer has lied to her about. But I won't.

Sorry it's so long. Does anyone have advice for what I should do? Should I get over it? Should I chase after her? What? All advice will be greatly appreciated.=)