Stupidity, yet another poem Options

[LoST SouL]

Stupidity

i can't describe the feeling
i jus wanna cry and cry and cry
im so evil
im such a stupid whore
how could i have done what i did?
now i regret everything
im so guilty
im so stupid
kill me now i beg of you
the guilt
the passion
everyhting
is killing my insides
the pain is unbrearable
i don't know what to do
why must it hurt so much?
i'm thinkin...
i'm dwelling
i'm contemplating
it is torture
i feel like hiding
in a dark dark corner
i wanna run away
maybe if i start over
all the pain will be gone
i want to be a new person
in a new place
in a new life time
no one will know me
no one will know my past
it will be as if i never existed
maybe its better that way
maybe i'll move to a distant country
a distant land
i can't take it
im a stupid fool
everyone around me seems so happy
nuthin is as wat it seems
the smile on my face
hides the sad lost and confused little girl within
she screams for help
people come
but who ever she looks at
turns into stone
it is a curse
she is cursed
she is cursed from ever achieving happyness
it is her sad misfortune
life is so cruel
in order to survie one must play the game
it has so many twist and turns
in this game i lose
one must seduce decieve and lie
i am not capable of such
so i am a fool
a fool to man kind
a fool to everything
a fool to myself
will some one save me?
can some one save me?
or shall i jus die
die in the corner
of that dark dark grave
that has been left out
for my soul
for my heart
for every aspect of my life
in which i believe in
that has failed me
every time i breath