My Testimony, poem Options

[LoST SouL]

My Testimony

sometimes we sit and think
we think about all the lies
and the times weve cried
the times we were sad
times we were mad
after a while we seem to hate life
life full of its mistakes and mishappes
full of misfortune and grief
we basically look how life screwed us ova
wen we were happy
sumthin brought us down
when things were as bad as it could get
it got worse
we ponder bout what life could have been
we start to regret the things we did
the things we did not do
the things we said
the thins we did not say
we then look for a way out
a way to escape
a place to run away to
unfound, we turn to death
the easy way out
the way to "peace"
way to end all the misery
we then sit in the corner and sulk
it all seems as if life was worse than it began
we repeate this process
we contemplate more
we look back at all the memories
we then ask ourselves y we arent happy
y we are depressed
we then tend to hid behind false personalities
for we fear grief and pain
it all seems as if we arnet capable of happiness
the ability to smile has dissappeared
we then try to find sumthin that makes us happy
somehow more probelms occur
uncontentness
disbelief
nonacceptance
we blind ourselves from the truth
we see wat we want to see
not what is truly there
we seem to be too scared to let go
we move away from reality
into our own worlds
we let people into our world
we hope they will bring this so called happiness
yet in a matter of days
they pack their bags and leve
carryin a long a suvinere
a part of our world
soon enough our worlds seem to fall apart
they crumble
they collapse
in the end we are left with nothing
no hope
no1 to love
no1 to love us
nothing...