Mullatto is black too!, YER@! Options

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Taken From-Mullattopeople.com

I've taken the flashing words off this screen to explain a few things. I went to livejournal.com and read some people's take on the whole deal here.

I am writing this as of November 19, 2002. It has been nearly two years since this site has been updated, yet these bashings were written two months ago.

I plan to create another site, but with not as many features and with a different focus. However, before people can peg me with negative names and descriptions, they have to understand where I'm coming from on everything that I've stated.

I initially intended to present the following paragraphs as numbered facts, so please pardon the inconsistencies.

I bashed both blacks and whites on this site, not just blacks.

I do not "behave" like a black person nor a white person. Since I obviously do not look white, whites do not have an issue with this - obviously, no one is calling me a "wigger". The problem comes in when blacks around me complained that I "talk like a white boy" (I just speak proper English, that's all), or acted as though I lived a sinful lifestyle because I wasn't into hip-hop or didn't sport urban gear.

I am now 23 years old, having only lived in the "real world" for five years. I got into the mulatto thing at age 18, and left it alone for awhile at the age of 21, when I stopped updating the site. The point is, I still had the high school mentality that I had to justify who I was, what I was into, and how I behaved. And during those high school years, when I "justified" my behavior before blacks, my justification was that I'm not all black: I'm half white also. Having become frustrated with the fact that it wouldn't fly among them, I began to seek out other mulattoes who had similar issues.

The most important thing that I failed to realize was that it's not just mulattoes who go through such abuse. There are monoracial blacks out there who speak proper English, who are not into hip-hop, and wear preppy clothing - and they go through the exact same thing.

Again, I live in the real world now. It took me nearly four years of being there to realize that I have nothing to prove to anyone anymore - as far as who I am and the way I am. It wasn't until nearly two years ago that I learned that respect among adults is earned through character - not the brand on your shirt, the slang you use, or what is and isn't in your CD collection.

I want you to disregard anything I've said about SAT's or any other statistics on blacks. All I wanted was for blacks to understand that if mulattoes behave differently from blacks, it's because we are different. It's that simple. If I said anything negative about blacks, it's because I was trying harder than I should have to justify that difference - something that wasn't necessary in the first place.

I do not favor nor hate one race more than the other. However, I knew that simply stating this wasn't going to convince blacks who visited the site. This is why I bashed whites.

The bottom line is this: My site should have been about something different. You may have seen the episode of Fresh Prince of Bel Air where Carlton was rejected from a black fraternity because they thought he was a "sellout". Knowing who Carlton is, you'd see why he was rejcted by the blacks in the fraternity, when in reality, they needed someone like him. You then heard what his father had to say at the end of the episode - about how wrong it is when successful blacks are labeled as as "sellouts" by the rest of the black community. That's what my site should have been about.

Don't take this as an apology for the site. I have changed a great deal since the last update nearly two years ago. I don't want you to agree with the site. Even I obviously don't agree with it anymore. What I do want is for you to understand the site. Understand that if you run into a young multiracial person who says the things I've said on my site, that in reality, he or she might actually be trying to say what I am saying to you now, but just doesn't know how to express it. Don't label the person a racist, an idiot, or a person who "needs help"; because chances are, that person doesn't realize that there are people out there who actually like him for who he is and nothing else. After the bad dating experiences I've had, it took engagement to who is now my wife for me to realize that (for the record, the only people in my personal life who know I have this site, and even discuss the matter with; are my wife, and two other close friends). But it shouldn't have to take such a big event for anyone else to come to that realization. When you throw insults, all you're doing is firing that person up and giving him or her another reason to be angry at their "component races".

There, I said what I had to say. Unfortunately, in the cynical age we live in today, some of you will disregard everything I have just said and say that I'm still the same and haven't changed. Those people are no better themselves, since they also lack the ability to look for good in others. I'm done.