help please!!!, everything changed... Options

[enyceXaddiction]

the guy i've been liking for over a month finally found out i like him, but he wasnt meant to so he "accidently found out" i guess. it strated of with me being in my last period class which was social stidies. I was bored out of my mind studying about the revelutionary war so i decided to right my crush's name all over my text book and writing stuff like "i love ***" and so on...well after school he was in the yard trying to reach for the basketball hoop. he took my textbook and started jumping on it still trying to reach for the hoop. a idiot that i am i totally forgot all the stuff i wrote inside and left it there to talk to my friend. thats when he called out my name and said "why is my name in here!?" seeing him having my textbook open on his lap. i turned bright red and ran over to him and took my textbook back and ran to my friend. ever since then me and him havent been talking like we use to *i guess you can consider us pretty close* and now everytime i see him i start blushing and i can never talk to him. even if he talks to me (which was very few) i just stay silent. i just want to break out of this bad habit and be able to admit to him that i like him ALOT and be able to too talk to him like a normal person!!! i just dont know how....help!?!?