im the other girl Options

[berry_lickable]

flowers for you if you read this whole thing =]
this is my case:

It first started last year, we had an acqaintance(sp?) we talk eventually because we had english class together. yeah we flirted, but back then i was a snobby lil bitch that thought that i was too good for him so i didnt really give it a possibility, and i knew that he only wanted me because he wants to get in my jeans. the schoolyear continued on with the same relationship we have. right before my eyes, its finally summer.

*SUMMER*

2 months later, we went back to school. and boy did he change. he changed A LOT ! he grew 3 inches taller, he turned somewhat light skinned, his face looks gourgeous, and especially his body looks so effin HOT . his muscles turned so damn huge and he got a six pack !(not bad for a 15 years old). we'll i was just like "hey hes turned fine" but didnt like him because i was still a stuck up lil bitch who thought i was better than him. months passed, and i found out that he has a girlfriend now ! they looked so cute together =]. another month passed, and i started noticing that we started talking again. weeks later, i started having feelings for him. i knew i couldnt let my feelings take over me because he has a girlfriend already. so everytime he'll come close, i think of ways to let him down because i already knew he had feelings for me again. so whenever he tries to walk by me and ask me when we gonna get "together" i just tell him to leave me alone and go to his girlfriend. eventhough my words kill me, i still have to do whats right and stay away from him. more weeks passed, his girlfriend confronted me about him and me. she was extremely nice to me and she knew what i was trying to do. she knew that i was trying to stay away from his boyfriend, who confessed to her that he's inlove with me already. i told her im sorry but i put him down in everyway i could to make him go away. she was like " i know its not about you, its about him." i guess now they solved their problems and it seemed that they loved each other more than ever.

okay here's when my problem comes in. he talked to me today and he said if i want to get with him, and god knows how much i do, but as my parents brought me up i know its unjust for all of us so i told him to go to his girlfriend and be happy. he pushed me up against the wall and said " you dont know how much i love you. i'll give her up to with you." it sort of tickled my dumb heart but i still told him to go to his girlfriend and be happy. now im here breathing my heartbreak away just to do the right thing. but no matter how i tried to forget him, he's always on my mind now. i want to be happy without breaking a relationship because what goes around comes around right ? i need advice how to keep my mind off of him.

thanks =]