Unhappily Ever After, . . . a tragic end Options

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I close my eyes
I don't want to see it
but the image keeps replaying in my head
it dosen't make sense
it wont regester
i can hear them call my name
but i wont answer
maybe if I stand hear
quietly they will forget
I exsist
opening my eyes
responding to their calls
will mean that what they are saying is true
but it cant be
can it?
Tears began flooding down my face
it is true
it shouldn't be
but it is
your gone
forever
never to return to
the place in which you once rested
never to have to go through the
pain and anguish you've experienced
never to fill like an outcast again
I should be happy
you dont have to hurt anymore
I want to be happy
but I cant
my heart wont let me
everytime I begin to
fill relief
the image replays once mroe in my head
the angry shouting
the gun
the blood
your lifeless body
I keep seeing it
only I wasn't there
How can something
I have never seen
continue to replay
inside my head
why wont these
memories vanish
why wont you come back?
if only I could see you
just one more time
relive one more day
laugh one more laugh
dream one more dream
hear one more confession
maybe I would be happy
once again
but I can't
your days are gone
you laugh no more
the dreams are just memories
confessions are just something of the past
there is nothing I can
do to bring you back
there is nothing no one can say to ease the hurt
all i can do is cry
tears of joy
tears of sadness
tears of anger
perpetual tears
they refuse to stop coming
I feel my body go limp as I
fall into the arms of
an angel
pleeding for jesus to take my pain away
so here I am
waiting for it to finally
hurt
no more.