When your bf/gf is in the military, and is sent to Iraq... Options

[Winter]

My boyfriend is in the military and he's going to Iraq in a few days. I feel like I'm having a break down. We've had such a rocky road and now we're finally together again. And now he has to go to Iraq. I don't know how to take this.

I thought I was prepared. I really thought I could handle it. But as the day gets closer, I'm getting more freaked out. He could get seriously hurt out there. And I won't know if he's alive or dead until February. I don't know what I'm gonna do in those 7 months.

I have always been so dependant on him. Even during the times we weren't together, just thinking of him and knowing he'll always be there helped me a lot. And the times when we were going out, he made everything feel alright. When I am with him, I know that no matter what, things will work out, because he says they will.

This is not going to make sense perhaps. But if he dies, then it will be the ending of us. Everything will finally be over. But if he returns, then it will be a new beginning. For us. For our love. This is all just so horrid.

I just don't know how to take this. I don't know what to do now. I'm sure there are some of you with loved ones out there on the frontline. What do you do? How do you get through your daily life without constantly worrying, day and night, if he/she is still alive?