Spring Fling in Europe.. Now we're back in the US!, Kinda long, but I'd Appreciate Any Help! Options

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I went to Europe for Spring break for an "educational tour" with 7 other kids taking Spanish or French at my highschool. Also on the trip were 40 Canadians and 30 NewYorkers. So anyways, this guy who was from my school that went on the trip with us, let's call him Alejandro, and I, we got along really well and talked a bunch got to know each other and all that. Just good friends. Until one night, as we're trying to get away from all the other upperclassmen who were chattin' it up with the NY boys, we find eachother sleeping in the kitchen trying to get some rest. But then we can't really sleep cuz we're like half-sleeping, still talking at the same time. I dunno what happened next, but all of a sudden we're "spooning" (and i don't really think that's the right word for it but oh well) ! Then the next day it's all awkward and he wants to talk to me alone. So we get a chance to talk, and he wanted to have a little thing between us, just for spring break, while we're here in Europe. So I say, I don't care, Hey, I'm here in Europe so whatever. But then I realize later on that I didn't want that, I'd rather just stay friends, I mean, after all, he does have a girlfriend, even though this thing between us wasn't serious at all... I wouldn't have felt right to know that there's a girl out there un aware of what her boyfriend was doing in Paris. I mean, it wouldn't have worked well in my concious, plus I didn't like the thought of being treated like an object to mess with while he's in Europe. Like his "toy". So I told him all of this the next day and he said sorry, and he said that it's fine, and that he felt stupid. So there. I thought I was done. But two nights later when we were in Barcelona alrready, everyone headed out to a club and get alittle drunk, and the next thing you know I'm alone in his room with him, spooning with him and more! But we didn't touch on any of the 'bases'. We did stuff, without really doing stuff, you get it? Well, it's hard to explain. So..yeah. But don't get him wrong, he took care of me when I got sick there, and he wouldn't let me drink on the last night, even though I really wanted to, it was problobly the best thing not to do it. So he's not a complete a-hole. I mean, I like him for him, but I don't like him for his more, "sexual" side.. the side that makes me feel like only an object. So now, we're back in the U.S. and we still barely ever see eachother around school. But I've missed him a lot, and I think it's starting to go away now. I've never liked someone like this before, I have this fat crush on him, and all my friends are so surprised, that it's Me! Me acting this way over a boy! Hahaha.. but I figured out the reason why, is because he's already got a girlfriend so I don't have to deal with facing rejection. It's already there! Like, automatic! So all I have to do is wait until the feelings go away, and he and I can remain good friends, with nothing more. That's all I want. BUT, he recently asked for my phone number.. and he called, and we just talked about nothing really. He said he misses talking to me. So..?? What am I supposed to do now?! This crazy guy.. what is he doing? Is this wrong? Can we really just stay good friends? Or what's the deal? He has a girlfriend!! I don't want to get with him! I don't want to like him, I just do! And I'm trying to make it go away as fast as I can. Can somebody help me? I don't know what to do about this situation, how to get over him, and how to tell what he wants from me. Is it just friendship, like what I want? Or is it something more? Is it wrong for me to talk to him even though he has a girlfriend? What am I supposed to think of our conversations? ..I'm hoping they're just innocent friend conversations.

Sorry it's so long, with so many questions. I'm just rambling because I don't really know what to do. It's a crazy situation. I'm not very experienced and not very outgoing when it comes to boys.