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[ibleedforvanilla]

I let you borrowed my tears to cry
Let you share ur pain with me
Gave u the smiles that brightens you up
Drove away your murdering dreams
Yet you did not thank me for all of these,
Broke your promise that was meant to be kept forever,
Left me behind, suffering yet still surviving
In this dark f***in world.
But you regret of doing this to me
Sad about the things you did
Felt like sh*t for letting yourself down
And still love me when you already have
Shattered my heart into tiny pieces
That cannot be put back together.
In this night, it all reveals
The truth that we're done
All of the feelings that have been shared were all lies
All those times we had was just a waste
Then the next day, we'll find ourselves living in a whole new life
With new adventures that awaits for us
And that we have forgotten everything that happened
Between You and Me.

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I got f'in dumped yesterday for no reason. He didnt give me any reason which is like a total BS. I felt like smacking him or choking him yesterday, but NOOO...i was just frozen right there. And now i feel so frickin emotionless. I did not show any feelings in front of him but deep inside of me, i felt like a total crap. But now, its his loss for dumping me and now he's regretting every frickin thing that happened when he told me the "speech".
A part of me is really happy that im single and free again while my other part is still crying and dealin the broke up thing.
For now i have decided never to fall in love again til someone proves himself that he's RIGHT for me.