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[kyootE_krn_bebe]

hrmmz...so this is sorta new for me...being a member and all..but i guess i just need some "outside" advice. my bf..oops..ex bf and i have been together for about 10 and a half months. we were THE couple of our small korean community. on top of that he was my first serious relationship. then wen skoo started (different skoo) i was worried about him talking to other gurls. and he did. he flirted and stuff while i was going to skoo being faithful to him. he started hanging out with a different group of ppl and started changing. he was the perfect bf. he was smart, goodlooking, nice, had respect for everyone, had respect for me, also a tiger woods wannabe =) he was a great golfer. but one nite we were both invited to a party and i didn't go. thinking to myself why the hell would i sneak out for. instead they came by my house and dropped off some b00ze for me ^^ and we just talked for awhile and he left. he told me we had to go pick up two other gurls. and those gurls happen to be girls that go to my church. i had no particular problem with that and they were planning to sneak out. i slept smiling...and i woke up with the worst feeling. then it was out. everyone knew. and i heard it before my ex told me. he told me that he had ALOT of fun and that he thought he drank alittle TOO much. and then he told me that he was sorrie. he told me that he fukked one of the gurls that attend church wit me. she's fukin 13. and he fukin 16. and the ironic thing is that her name is the same as mine. i was sad...and so i stopped talking to him for about a week. and he never even tried to call me. !!! so i called him one day and told him to tell me wat exaclty happened. turns out he wasn't that drunk after all. since he told me detail by detail. muthfukin bastard...and on top of that ppl started accusing me. rumors have it that i told the gurl to go fuk him. and that im telling everyone he raped me and sh*t. so i bitched at him once. telling him that i don't need all this sh*t cuz he's the one that messed up our GREAT relationship. and all he sed was im sorrie i messed up. blahblahblha...and these ppl are calling me telling me that everyone HATES me. so...lately i just lost touch with everyone and im hoping things will quiet down.

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i already dumped him (im not THAT stupid)
i told him that we could if he wanted to
and i stopped talking to everyone.

plus. i am not fat. nor boring. and i am def. NOT going to call myself pretty cuz...that's just wrong =) wanna see a pic? IM me. krnbabyr0se lataz
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after the incident with my bf..i stopped talking to him. i stopped talking to everyone...yet...really..its more like everyone stopped talking to me...i feel...useless..like no one cares...never knew that one person can hurt me so much...yet again...he doesn't even know. he's stupid i know. but why am i the one having to be...alone..why do i feel so lonely..... i just want my frends back..guess they weren't my frends...but..then there's no one else here to be fukin frends with...i wanna dig myself a hole and die.

man....leave me comments will ya?...