To a friend I lost contact with but still see Options

[cynicalstitch]

tapped my foot against the steel you laid out just for me
and stood here waiting for your doors to open out to me
I miss the unnerving, the more inclined,
the fill of confidence from a happy mind
but from all those stares that echo from your eyes
makes me want more to resign

I remember how it used be when I was able to rest
Into your arms and warm and beating chest
And though we never came close to a kiss
Things were best as it is...

We were connected for just awhile
And it never stopped making me smile
And yet you had someone, and I'm alone
It never bothered me until you left me on my own...

I held on to a single loving hope that I always kept to believe
Longer I hoped for it to come true, the more I wanted to receive
All there is now is paranoia in the hopes that you'd understand
Like the way you always seemed to, but now you've changed again...

We never speak now it seems, and I guess that's okay...
I just wish you knew how it feels to be this way...
I always wanted something like this to never ever end....
Maybe because I don't know how to fend...

Without someone I imagined being there for my whole life

[*stephinika*]

wow...touching. i can relate in a way. well done.