long time, trying to escape it Options

[IamRad]

well okay, ive been liking my best friend for almost three years now. and he knows. first.. i wanna get over him but it seems so impossible right now. second.. i try to pick the worst qualities in him and try to get mad at him because trust me.. there are things to get pissed about.. he always talks about this one girl in particular and i really dont like her at all. it takes alot for me to either get mad or dislike someone. anyway... in the past and present he has said hurtful things but somehow as soon as he trys to say sorry or something. i fall for it and it all becomes better.. for example.. yesterday he was like yeahh no one is online so im talking to u. to me that was hurtful. so i tell him im his backup bitch and he found that funny HAHA no. it was meant to tell him not to freaking use me and then throw me away once someone better comes along. ive tried for so long to sit down and talk to him.. either in person or online. but nothing comes out. so i end upp spilling it out to my best friend, she gets mad.. and then wants to slap him across the head. any ideas on how to make a guy realize that hes doing something wrong, and if he doesnt stop it could really hurt one of his best friends.. well tahts wat he said... that we're "best friends" but to see how im treated by him sometimes, it just makes me feel worse and worse

sooo sorry for being so long.. hope u can help somehow. and hopefully this is in the right place...