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[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was bad ! i was very sick and took my medicine this morning and it made me very sleepy and i ended up sleeping through my first and second period. a total of 3 hours. but at least i had such good grades they didn't care if i slept. and then i went to spanish and had to do alot of thinking there so i got a headache. it was probably because i was just tired. i think i am starting get better due to the pills. they work really good!

--Frankie

[*Kathleen*]

Life hates me. I swear it does. RIGHT when I was going to confess to him and spill my heart out...it was too late. It's always too late.
-Kathleen

[Chii]

Dear createBlog diary,

i used to be the good girl who went to school everyday and got good grades...now my grades have sunk into the ground and life is just hell...it's like since my parents started being up my ass about everything...it's just been a downward spiral...it's not because i'm stupid, i just can care the f*ck less about school, it's not a #1 priority to me anymore, i just want to be with my boyfriend and no one else...that's the only real time i'm happy any way...

i'm not happy being in this hell hole with my parents, i'm not happy with them, they don't make me happy, they don't even treat me like a f*ckin person...i can honestly careless if they just died, i won't shed a single tear

i rarely went to school last term because i just wanted to spite my parents, and because of that i failed all my classes with 55's (except for one 50), my teachers have said that i have the potential to do better, it surprised me that my math teacher said it because i thought he hated me...i don't mean to brag or seem full of myself but i know it's true, i know i'm smart, it's only that i don't care

my parents being a pain in my ass is escalating...it's making me want to move out more and more by the time i'm 18...

a sad pitiful thing i must confess...i've never been to a full day of school...that upsets me and makes me feel so horrible...i tried to get to school on time so many times but i just always fail...i get so discouraged

i hate it how people can't own up to what they say...i refused to go to art class because my teacher ridiculed me and i confronted her but she only got mad at me for telling her the truth and made class hell for me

you know what? it's so stupid that people online pretend they have this fabulous life when it's all a big lie, it's disgusting why do you people lie about your lives on a stupid website? just so you can get like net props or whatever? so you'll be popular online?

and why are people so fake? it's like you know what? that girl is ugly, she knows it, you know it everyone else knows it but won't admit it, what's the point in saying that she's beautiful or pretty? lies like that hurt people in the long run, you're only building up her confidence which will make her crash and burn because her "beauty" was all a lie and no one told her the truth

i know i have to try to do better in school because some how down the road it will help me...i just wish that for like 10 minutes my mom will just leave me alone and just let me be...i'll never be the daughter she wanted...i'll never be able to speak that perfect chinese...i'll never be a doctor or lawyer...i know it and she knows it too so why won't she just shut the f*ck up?

why do people act like they're all big on the internet? it makes no sense to me, oh look i can curse you out and diss you better that makes me so cool i mean really, we're all just people online, words aren't going to make us bow down to you...and to those idiot children who think they're all that and intelligent, there's a difference between speaking your mind and being a bratty little insulting geek who just looks up "big" words on an online dictionary

so yeah...this is what life is to me...by the way did i mention it's me and johnny's 6th month anniversary? hehe, that boy makes me so happy i swear...if he never stepped into my life...i have no idea who i'd be and i'd just be whoring myself out there if it wasn't for him...god, i just wish i was 18 so i can just run away with him...like you know...leave and run to wherever fate leads us...

ps
i don't want to use my real last name anymore...i just want to take johnny's now

pps
good god is this long

much love,
M.L. x3

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary

bleh. why am i jealous!? why!? i shouldn't be! UGH! i hate my feelings. i shouldn't be feeling them.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog Diary,
My birthday was absolutely wonderful.
People remembered.
And I had a good day, after two or so weeks of shit.
Love,
Me.

[nhj_2006]

dear cb diary

its 8 am, and im in school, so sleepy. nothing to do. in 24 hrs time, i will be finding out my SAT score, it will either be happiness or sadness. hopefully i get to see my boo tomorrow.

<3

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today in leadership, all we did was watch FORREST GUMP. it is still as good as ever! but she i had to do my math homework. it sucked because i had 3 pages! but then i went to tennis and it was such a waste because all we did was play double and i hate doubles! and i literally got nothing of that. next was algebra...BORING! all we did was word problems and i think my new favorite letters are X and Y. then i went to IPC and i haven't been there for 3 days and i luckily didn't have much make-up work. and we have a step show to go to tomorrow and i hope that we can go!

--Frankie

[Chii]

Dear createBlog diary,

hehe, today was great i was so scared that my math teacher would yell at me for not finishing the homework so i made up questions and diagrams to seem like i did it...he said i had nice, neat homework

johnny makes me so happy i just laugh and laugh whenever we're messing around at his place, whether we're eating or making out or talking or etc it's so fun. today i couldn't stop laughing i hope this never ends

ooo i should mention something that he said to me so i don't forget...when we were cuddling...he said, "i love you, you're my girlfriend and i will never be ashamed to be with you, that's why i take you everywhere with me, i love you so much" when he said that i teared up...because when i thought about it...some people were ashamed to be with me...like a____ he would walk away from me when certain people were around...and m____ never really showed me off to anyone...i love him so much diary......i know i found the one, he's my one and only just like hideki was chii's one and only...

oh my god...i almost forgot to mention this when i was getting on the subway, like when i was near the turnstiles, this guy that looked homeless with a big yellow jacket patted my ass twice with his hand ran like a yard away from me, looked at me with a weird grin and ran off what the f*ck is that??? i swear to god if he didn't run and if i wasn't carrying stuff i would of punched him

my brother's friends are un-f*cking-believable, when i got home from school, our door was OPEN and my brother was asleep but 3 of his friends were over that's so f*cking disrepectful, it's like how can you go into someone's house and leave the door open like that??? if you don't know how to lock our door, you can at least CLOSE it AND they ate 1/3 or the donuts the thing with the door that gets me really mad is that, what if someone broke it? i KNOW that his friends would run their punk p*ssy asses out and let the robbers take all our sh*t...they probably wouldn't even wake my brother up, some people are just so ugh

oh well...at least i ended my day happy, i was smiling like an idiot all the way home on the train, on the bus, and walking home...my johnny

much love,
M.L. x3

[miss barnes]

Dear CB Diary

DAMN DAMN DAMN!!! marios suspended for 5 days!!! he & some girl got the fighting and he punched her and she flew over some desks. DAMN man he wont be back until next Thursday and then on Friday i'm going to oklahoma so i'll only see him 1 day next week. man, i wish that him and his girl would break up. he needs to just be single.

reekah

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary:

oh my effing god. i hate this. i hate it i hate it i hate it. i shouldn't be feeling like this but i can't help it...all his actions affect me more than the other him's...BLAH. i hate how i feel. because i can't feel like this. i can't. i'm not supposed to. but yet i do. why...i love him. i do. but...agh.

[sadolakced acid]

dear createblog diary.

so, life the universe and everything. it's like a cosmic vacum. sucking for an eternity.

my life is a black hole. it sucks.

i guess. anyways. i'm looking for a purpose. i've decided to write. a story. yes. i will use. complete sentences. without. random punctuation. hope your. head doesnt'. hurt. reading this. yea. about the story. it's going. to be cool. i haven't. decided. on names. so. they're all called. guy one. guy two. guy three. etc.

- bleh.

[nhj_2006]

dear cb diary,

im writing in here again. wee i actually like writing in here cuz no one cares. and u can express ur feelings. today is friday and i woke up at 6 and i found out my sat scores, they were quite well, even tho when i told my dad, he wasnt "that satisfied" that kinda dissapointed me a lil but w/e, but since its my first time taking it, its all good. i got 3 test today and i hope i did good on it. i get to see my hun after school today. yay. gotta fill out my ap form for either ab/bc calculus this weekend. other than that, mom says we'll celebrate tomorrow, and my grandma is leaving tomorrow back to m'sia, this might be the last time i'll see her until another couple of years and shes gettin old, so i might have to do something for her tonight. wonder what should i do. im in 1st pd class, free pd. wahhoo. i should go study. tata

<3

[miss barnes]

Dear CB diary

tomorrow one of my balls...and i just got some shoes today...whew!!! if only i hadnt bought those chucks i could have gotten my nails did....

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

school today was alright. (not the best day i have ever had, but whatever. ) i was very excited all day because i knew that the BIG, GIANT, AWESOME step show wad coming up tonight. and i was going to go with my sister. but then i get home and she is like, "i think i am going to go with sharon and them to tim's soccer game." and i thought that she might still go to the step show because she said I THINK. but i was wrong. she ended up going. i know it might seem stupid but i was so upset. i was so excited all day for the step show and then i get home and it was like said, "i don't want to go to the step show, i would rather go with them to the game." i don't know why she would talk about the step with me all week and then it gets down to the day and she just drops me like i'm hot! maybe i am just overexagurrating(sp?) but i'm upset.

--Frankie

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
It's a strange feeling, indeed, to feel the instant urge to cry before being overcome by a wave of indifference; I don't know what to make of it, at all.
-Me.

------

I'm looking for something that's just not there anymore.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

why do certain people in my family think i am dumb? i mean, i am not stupid! i know what goes on even when you cover it up with lies! i can't believe that i ask them about and they want to bite my head off. i am sick and tired of it. :bitter:

--Frankie

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary..

i don't even know if i love him anymore...well i do but...i don't know. i keep thinking of others in his place. and its so wrong. what am i going to do...i do love him but...its not the same. or am i just fooling myself? i don't even know anymore.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

yeah, i woke up this morning and i am still sick! acutally, i am even sicker! i just want to get better! i don't like being this way because i am not myself anymore! i want to be able to have fun and do all the things i used to do but now i am just boring!

i want to get better! X(

--Frankie

[miss barnes]

Dear CB diary

went to northwest's military ball with sheneya. it was alright. danced with some peeps

[someflipguy]

Dear Diary,

Had a pretty good as weekend. Friday hung out with my girl and some friends. I had a good as time at the Club, great memories. Saturday my girl came to see me at the bowling alley with some other friends, and what a shock they put on my face. They came there with signs rooting, "Go Ryan" it was so hilarious. Everyone was like "How much you pay them to do that. I was like what??" I do not pay anybody anything, I am just kind to them and they return the kindness back. After bowling that night I was to tired, was suppose to go to this party at this bar called "Joannes" but sleep overcame me. I had texted my girl saying I wanted to see her, but I didn't get a text or a phone call until 30 minutes later. And, come to find out my girl had drove over to my apartment to see me. It was so freaking sweet! I really do have a great Girlfriend, I sometimes take advantage of her, but I am trying to do better. That next morning went to church and what a great service by Father Ed, preach it my filipino pastor. Then went to my friend Laras house to eat some good filipino food and hang out. Around 5 we had left to go to my house and drink and play games and drink of course. Man the pictures I took of that. lol! Something got me upset that night but, all I had to do was brush it off because it was nothing to get all huffy and puffy about.

Ryan

[*Programmer*]

Dear CB diary,

Thinking alot about my future and what i wanna do lately.....i mean im gonna be 20 by the end of this year im starting to feel old and like i've accomplished nothing at this point in my life....i have alot of distractions to stop me from reaching my goals as well...girl's, parties, drinking(our parents before us were aloud to drink at the age of 18 this 21 shyt is bull$hit. so don't give me that lecturing bull$hit....) are just some of them, i've been supposedly blessed with good looks. but i don't think high of myself when it comes to looks, well im just rambling sounding like an old man lmao.....later

-Rico

[rockmyx]

Dear Cb,

l tried to tell her or send her a messeage but l cant. l dont know how to start or how to say it to her. l really tried but l cant find a right word to say it to her. l'm too shy to tell her. guess l leave cb without telling her what l really feel about her.

l can forget her, l know l can. l just needed a little time to be alone.


this is my last post

until l came back

hope she's still here.

l will come back if l totally forget all this stupid things that l felt for her.

bye bye for now CB

[*mzkandi*]

dear createblog,
I miss Brandon....oh well who knows when he will be back. I have three test to do this week. One Thursday and two Friday which means I have to catch up on three worth of reading that i havent done oh yay

kiera

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
I dreamed of him last night for the first time in a while.. I really miss him.
I called him a bit ago. I'm not even worth his time..
-Me.

[xsweet_as_candii...]

[B]Dear Diary,
okay this is going to be a long entry.
I don't think i can handle it anymore, middle school is just so tough. Everybody gets mad at eachother for the dumbest reasons. My friends, tell me secrets about my other friends and make me promise that i won't tell, i never do, but it so hard to look at my friend having a good time with my friend that told me the secret, knowing that all that is fake.

And then theirs guys, why do guys have to be so shallow, ive had a bunch of guys ask me out this year, yet i said no to all of them, i think its because i know in my heart that they dont like me for who i am, they just like me because im popular and pretty {i dont want to sound stuck up by this}.

Then theyres parents, my parents let me do wat i want in the end, but it gets so annoying, when i go out on dates they get so tense about everything. UGH it not like im gonna have sex yet!

Still more, school. Its so hard, i used to get straight a's and now, well lets just say my parents wont be getting a bumper sticker this year its so hard, the homework theyres just too much! i mean were already in school for 7 hours, and then they excpect us to do 2 more hours of homework, i dont think so.

And then theyre kristy, she was my best friend for a long time, and now she hates me its just so hard. She says its cuz 'i copy the way ppl dress and talk and blah blah blah' i think shes just so obsoberd in being popular that she doesnt really care about anything else including me, although in a way thats kind of a good thing, because this year i could finally find out who my real friends are. Idf theyre true or fake, a dollar or a penny.