createBlog Diary., Version 3. Options

[racoons > you]

i liked rob he was funny. and he and mona together were f**king hilarious! can they come? ah well its not really very probable that it wil hapen,so i think we cansafely ovver crowd the car a tad....may be i can meet omeon ein raliegh and fall in love, so that way we can have the romance. but i kinda wanna be in the group that has to do the desperate car chase to find out wha happens...

how do you felel about falling in lov ein raliegh?

if not i can always ask kate very nicely.... lol.... this will be FUN!

[*tweeak*]

i liked rob he was funny. and he and mona together were f**king hilarious! can they come? ah well its not really very probable that it wil hapen,so i think we cansafely ovver crowd the car a tad....may be i can meet omeon ein raliegh and fall in love, so that way we can have the romance. but i kinda wanna be in the group that has to do the desperate car chase to find out wha happens...

how do you felel about falling in lov ein raliegh?

if not i can always ask kate very nicely.... lol.... this will be FUN!

no, they cant come, because he and mona dont do anything but get high together. not to mention that mona moved. goes to northview, i think.

falling in love in raliegh would be lovely.

wait, they dont have accents there, right. im very particular about accents. ask kate very nicely what?

i hope everyone is sufficiently entertained now

[racoons > you]

if she would mind falling in love, but it doesnt matter, b/c you want to, so its all good
maybe we should all get high it will be comic relief. i liked mona. we can pick her up on teh way, i have decided they are coming

[*tweeak*]

but mona and i never particularly liked each other much. and i dont suppose id mind getting high terribly so long as i was already breaking millions of laws. maybe id like mona more then too. we can bring rob, but i cant guaruntee that hell be able to stand on his own

[racoons > you]

lol, no worries, we can all support one another. we are going to destroy as many brain cells as possible, dorlin'

this will be hellz fun. can paige come?

[*tweeak*]

oooh yes, paige can come, of course. god were going to have to rent a bus. so thatll be our life long fun time and then its back to the straight and narrow. the straight and narrow, mate, stragith and narrow. now moe vagabonidng for us

[racoons > you]

or we could form a secretsociety of underground scallywags who reek havok on the corruptive governments of the world! *woot*

which would be a good movie. will be a blow out of a summer. that is that im coming

[*tweeak*]

ok good. actually, an underground society would be nice as well. except that wed actually have to live underground. ive always wanted to

[racoons > you]

yeah we could find a cave! o hoorah!

and kate and rae have both confirmed, btw

[*tweeak*]

hahaha awesome. now i suppose we should probably stop chronicalling our plans on here before someone kills us


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i hope everyone enjoyed that little eruption. good day to you all, and heres a "dear cb diary", just for kicks

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was great! almost all of my classes went semi-fast. and i did really good in tennis, i am making a really good grade in math and my group has one of the best projects in ipc!!!
we have the talent show tonight and cici is going to be in it! i am so happy! it is going to be so much fun! i can't wait until i see who is going to be doing the show and what they are going to be doing.
i am still excited about spring break and i am not sure if i can wait until saturday!!!!

--Frankie

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
I don't think I'll be going to junior prom. There's nobody worth going with. Sure, there's Lilian and Chinh and Henry and Eddy and the rest of them, but I don't want to spend money and time on something I might not even enjoy. Maybe if Jenn can convince Mike to pay for me and be my date. It's considerable; we'd probably spend the night openly hating on everyone together. Actually, that sounds kind of fun.

I was asked out for tomorrow night, but I can't go. For one thing, it's the night before the SAT. I'm pretty much on lock-down. For another, I have no way of getting there unless he wants to swing by to pick me up. And a final thing, I'm not sure if I really even want to meet up with him. Hm.

I cut sixth period for a track me today. Yeah, I'm a bad kid. Two cuts in last period already, and it's only been 6 weeks of second semester. Sigh. I wore the cutest outfit today. It actually made me feel attractive, which really hasn't happened in a long while. I should get started on my homework soon. I'll write again in a bit.

-Me.

[someflipguy]

Dear CB diary,

So I am glad that I feel complete again. My girlfriend wasn't in town for two weeks and boy was that a killer. I wanted to just shoot myself. It has been such a crazy year for me. She doesn't know if she is going to stay after these next 6 months. I know its to early to predict what will happen to us but, hopefully my prayers will be answered. I like helping her I like just seeing her smile sometimes. Its funny how I feel towards her sometimes. I know she has told me that she loves me and I don't wanna feel obligated to say it back because I honestly don't feel it yet! When I feel that I love her I will let her know. May it be next month or months down the road. I won't know just yet, its hard to love another person after the first person that you ever loved hurt you and broke your heart and two. I am over my past love but, I am still picking up the pieces that broke off from it. With my special girl by my side I know that love will come soon.

I read back on some of thesee past CB diary postings some of yal have wrote, and I realize my life isn't that bad. I see people saying that school is messed up, my parents hit me, I got pregnant, I got a miscarriage, but I realize to myself that I have been through all that too and it took a long road to get back on track. I still am not back on track the way I want to be. I still want that and I still need this. But, for now I am thankful for all of Gods blessings.

Thats why I sometimes get bad at people because they got there heart broken or whatever it may be. Been there and it will take time, you can't get over someone that quickly. Thats why if me and Thao ever broke up after she has left, it would be extremely hard. Especially, if it wasn't because of a good reason. Breaking up because your far apart is stupid but, its very practical and you can't expect to live thousands of miles away and not drift away. I don't want to smother but, I don't want her to think I don't care. Its been a long time since I had to be this careful and I pray to God that I don't make any past mistakes.

Sex is going to be a big issue with the both of us. We have sex alot and I am so glad that she is going on our prevention plan. Condoms and BC, I hate condoms cus I can't feel shit, but I just think its the brand that we have that makes it feel bad. I like having sex with her, its so mind blowing. I have already got a girl pregnant twice so I don't need that happening again. I got lucky to be stuck with a baby because she had miscarriages but, I don't want that to happen to me again.

Life does move on.

-Ryan

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I am now finished with this stupid personal essay althoughI highly doubt that I'm going to pass. Rawr.

[xTINAA]

Dear Createblog Diary,
how is it that I manage to f**k everything up all the time? Like school, family, friends, and most of all, guys&relationships. I don't understand why I act the way I do. Sometimes I act so freaking stupid and it seems like I had the right intentions yet somehow it just all gets screwed up. And I feel like I'm in such a tough spot right now and like no one is there for me. My chances of going to college keep decreasing and even though I'm trying my hardest, it's just not good enough. My family life isn't that great. I can't tell who my real friends are or if I even have any. And now that the one person I've liked forever tells me he likes me back and wants to be with me, what do I do? Mess it up, of course. I'm a wreck.
-Me.

[to-devastate]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I don't know why you're trying to ignore me. Did I do something wrong? I don't know. Am I acting like a freaking b*tch? Tell me what I did wrong. I'm so lost. I hate this. You're making my agrivated. You totally ruin my day. I hate you. So much as I love you.
-Eileen

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

finally, it is spring break!!! i am so happy! we just found out that the grands got the rv today so we are going to go over there and look at it and then we are going to come back over here, sleep and them go early in the morning! it is going to be so great! well, at least i hope because i know that katie is going to be there and hopefully she won't piss me off! -__-" and i get to drink all the dr. pepper i want!!!! :evil: but i will be so sad because i will not be able to get onto to createblog! i am going to miss all of y'all!

--Frankie

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary:

so my week slowly improved over time....it was nice. today and yesterday were pretty awesome (minus the school part) so yeah. thanks for everything you guys, you know who you are.

[xTINAA]

Dear Diary
tonight was a better night. I like spending time with my friends just talking about whatever and plus I saw Hostage and that's one of the best movies I've seen in a long time. Okay that's all...

[gigiopolis]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,

I guess I've been putting up a wall, a barrier. I think it's because I remembered how it was like to be sad last year, how it felt to be always depressed, always pissed at everything. And after all that, I told myself that I don't need to go through that again. I refused to do so. I became the happy, independent girl. I didn't need anyone.

So...as a result, even when I was sad, wasn't feeling great, I tried to put on a smile. And yes, I bitched at people, but that was when I was trying to cover up how I was feeling. I guess I should just stop lying, because you know what? I'm not happy. I haven't been for a while. Not since I had to stay up til 12:45 every night to do my God-damned homework. Not since Valentine's Day. Not since that day he walked beside me. Not since he started ignoring me. Not since I heard her sobbing. Not since that thing that makes me feel stupid...which is a topic I can't elaborate on right now.

I'm sick of pretending. I wish I could just say everything instead of keeping things bottled inside. But you know what? I can't. Because words hurt. Because the truth hurts. Because I hurt.

Maybe it's not so bad to be a damsel in distress, it's good to need someone sometimes.

[*mzkandi*]

dear cb,
spring break is finally here!! yay now i can chill out and look for a car!! i wish HE was here though, i miss him....*sigh*
kiera

[ichiban]

Dear CB,
I want to fade away into nothingness. Because I don't want to deal with everything right now so I'm running away. Yeah it's pathetic I know, but what do I get for putting up with all this crap? I'm so lost in whatever that I can't even gain control of myself.
My best friend's starting to annoy me sometimes but all my friends annoy me one time or another. Blahhhh that's the least of my worries. It's just that I miss being best friends with Angel because well ... things were always more fun with her. I mean she always had the best things to do. But then she just HAD to change and turn into a stuck up snob and ditch me for all her other friends. So yeeeahhh.
Science project's bugging me. I neeed to start. And it's due on Wednesday. Procrastination sucks ass dude.
I am pining over Eric. But then, I'll get over it. It might take like a year or whatever, but i still will, right?

Joyous. I hate my life.

But God's helping me. I'll just believe that and try to smile.

[Nicolatofu]

Dear cb diary--

I want spring break to come already... 2 more weeks. Wow, this year has went by soo fast! All A's and one B... But hey taking Algebra 3 is tough on a freshman! Actually it's not too bad, but by the end of the year, I promised mysef I'd have straight A's.
Today I told my mom that I hate my brother with a flaming passion. And I meant it too. After we gave up our lives in California for him, he can't even take an hour out of his to help my mom. After all they have been through, he gives it up. I told my mom that I no longer have respect for him, and if he thought I was bitchy then, he will probably end up telling my mom something because I will not speak to him until I can cool myself down. And I already told my mom that I won't change my attitude towards him no matter what she says to me. I can't wait till I graduate to move back to cali and leave his ass here. I'll laugh in his face when his marraige breaks apart and he'll once again be alone.

[stupid_me]

dear cb diary,
today was fun, my friends got me a really nice little wristelt purse thing for my birthday...which was a total surprise. im so happy to be so lucky to have friends that care about me. but even though i have them, i still feel so alone. no one really understands me. and the only people i can vent all this ot are some random people on the internet that i dont even know. its kind of easier for me to talk to people that dont kno me and tell them about all the little secrets i have in my life. its kind of sad.

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm going crazy. I think I'm going to pull out all of my hair. Everything sucks right now and things haven't been good in forever. I wish I could go back to Thursday night and just do things differently. At least that would remove one of the worries and stresses in my life. *sigh*
-Me.