createBlog Diary., Version 3. Options

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

everyone got a haircut today. no, seriously, everyone.

well, actually, not today, but over the weekend. same difference.

school is depressing as hell. how am i going to get into a decent colllege with a f**king 3.3??! i had no idea it was that bad. they couldve mentioned that on my report cards. i thought with an 88. 6 average it would be higher than that. but no, because i had to go and f**k up second semester last year. straight Bs except band is just sad. at least ill get more As this time, but if i dont bring my algebra grade up im skrewed. i have a f**king 73. im going to fail. how am i supposed to bring my grade up 7 points if i cant even pass a probability quiz of all things? and i didnt even just fail it either. i got a 46. how the hell do you get a 46 on a probability quiz? i honestly dont know.

i dont nkow whats wrong with me. yes, ive always been bad at math, but this is insane. i got my chemistry grade up, but with this test on thursday im going to kill it again, im sure. i cant do labs. i just sit there and let marissa do it all, since i cant do it unless its blatently pelled out for me. i dont know why, but i absolutely dont understand. i dont know if i just dont pay attenton and wind up missing all the instructions or if im just that thick, but it makes no sense to me.

and then of course, theres language arts in which i fianlly got my grade up, only to pull it back down again because of that shitty essay. whatever happened to those days when i could write? i used to get As on all my essays. now i know mr weeks wont give out more than 1 A on an essay at a time, but i should at least get high Bs. not an 80. dammit i hate this. even my history grade is going down (which means 93, 94, but still i need it to bright the rest of my gpa up). I HATE IT I HATE IT HATE IT. i want to go to dunwoody. its easy there

[LQ_Darksoul]

Dear CB Diary,
Hi.
Ty~

[Skyline Drive]

Dear CB Diary,

As I was driving out of my school parking lot I almost wrecked into a truck. It would of been one bad wreck if it would of occured. After that happened I just felt like breaking down.. because I kept thinking "WHAT IF it would of happened.. I would of been so dead.."

Nonetheless I feel like complete and total shit. My crush has indeed crushed my heart. Geometry is currently killing me, I feel that I will never learn it. I HATE knowing that I have the good grade I do now because I cheat. It makes me feel stupid. I hate that feeling. To sum it up.. I am an emo wreck.

I don't want to care anymore. I just don't want to let my parents down again..

</3 I wish I didn't give up so easily.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary.

my father is so godamn insensitive and ignorant.
i hate it so much.
thank you to ac, kp, mc, mc, ay, jc, dm, jv and all those who've helped me out in the last days....i truly appreciate it. anyways...things are going...alright i suppose. could be better, but whatever.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

tennis was so flipping hard! >__> we had to run toooooo much! <__<
i am so excited about spring break! i am going to be so restless these last few days! i am so excited, i just can't say it enough! i love going rving and it will be with my grands so it will be so much fun! but katie is going to be there and she had better not piss me off because i am tired of her shit!
i made my peanut and it looks so cuuuuute! i am so excited about presenting it tomorrow!

--Frankie

[Teesa]

Dear CB Diary,
Ohhhh, there is so much work to be done!! I hate that all my teachers all piling up the work and it just gets harder. There are so many exams and tests to study for, I don't know what I am going to do..
<3 teesa

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

geez i havent been in the chat in forever. im so out of the loop now

[*tweeak*]

and so. i am going to fail chemistry. not to mention algebra. but ill fail chem tomorrow, where as i will probably actually be failing algebra come friday. i hate this. chemistry should not be required. its about the most useless class ever. and i just generally cant do math, so lets ditch algebra 2 too, seeing as i really really need a B, and this 73 isnt exactly close. f**k f**k f**k. and yet through all my acedemic troubles (i dont know whats wrong with me. really i dont) my mom expects me to be able to remember to find her volunteers for that thing. my priorities dont count apparently. nevermind that my lack of future will cost her as well as me

[Angel_Cece]

dear cb diary,
Of course today sucked like hell, doesn't it always? Anyway, chrissie ignored me today and went off with my ex friend. it felt real bad. i got ditched... i felt real stupid when they were laughing in my face and when chrissie told her that she was her new best friend. what a friend? revenge is sweet....... she'll see.

--cher

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

today was so much fun. well, kinda. i am still having drama with the whole lisa and i don't really know what to do! i really wish i hadn't started gossip or anything like that! =/
i just don't want lisa to be mad at me.
speech was so fun today! all we did was peanut speeches and mine fortunately turned out better than planned! i was so happy. i actually made them laugh!
i am pretty sure that i am failing spanish. i am probably going to get a call from mr. green and he is going to tell my parents that i am failing and that i am going to never go to college. well, not that extreme but you know what i mean. and right before spring break too! why must he be so mean?
i still am so excited about spring break because it is going to be so much fun! but i am also sad because i am not going to be able to get on createblog! actually, that is kinda sad; i mean, i am dissapointed because i can't go to a website everyday! i must really be addicted! that is so crazy!

--Frankie

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog Diary,
It's hard to shake this feeling. In fact, I can't. Too bad, isn't it?
I'm on dial-up now. It's not as bad as I thought it would be.
I wore a skirt today.
I wish I were wanted.
-Me.

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary
I need help. I'm struggling so much right now with EVERYTHING. And it feels like nothing is going right. Everything is going wrong and I haven't been happy for a long time. Why I even bother writing this, I have no clue...

[Looow]

Dear Cb Diary.
I've been feeling extremely horrible lately. I feel like I'm the biggest failure ever. I'm struggling with everything. Nothing seems to go the right away and everything is just so hard not. I always bottle my feelings inside but lately I can't help it. I've been crying during class. Gosh. I need help.

[korbana05]

Dear CB diary thingie...

Had an AWESOME day!! school was normal... study talk bla bla bla... but then afterwards i got to pick up rox and christina and we all went to church and MAN was it sooooooooo great! I really felt God and i know my relationship with him just went much higher... its so great to worship God!! It takes away stress and makes me feel so assured and secure.

oh i forgot!! at school we've been watching these movies about serial killers... and man its soooo scary what the guys did to their victims. SAD more though... *sigh* why did there have to be psycho people out there? innocent folks getting killed for the mere pleasure of crazed people. The real freaky thing is that they actually seemed so normal and one was even charming. little did his victims know that he just wanted to kill them and do all sorts of nasty stuff... this world is so bad.

well im tired... gotta study for a test tomorrow

-me-

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary

what a shitty yet good week. shitty due to the obvious reasons but good due to the massive support i've gotten...i love you guys. especially you and you. seriously...i love you both. quite. thanks so much for everything....i mean that. but yeah...i've been battling in my mind again over the stupidest things and its bothering me but meh...and school is a bitch. as are many people.
bleah.

[*Azarel*]

I just realized something. I hate my life. Fuck this, why do I even try?
-Me.

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

chemistry and algebra are the most unbelievably useless classes ever. and so they drag my gpa down as well. f**k i have to bring them up. good thing i just failed my chem test

[Nicolatofu]

Dear CB Diary

Yes!! I'm goin to cali this summer! well, hopefully. she betteer get the ticket now that she told me she'd buy me one. I get to go back to San Diego, Hollywood, Visalia... it will be so awesome! I'm just not sure if I want to go back to Visalia.. there's a lot of memories there, but every time I go back there, those memories come back, and I think it's time to put those away. Honestly, it'll probably be like all the other times she said she'd come visit or when she said she'd get me a ticket. I'd rather her just be truthful.
<3Nicole

[*tweeak*]

dear cb diary,

APPAERENTLY JAMES CANNOT COME VISIT THIS SUMMER SO I AM IN A THOROUGHLY BAD MOOD NOW, SINCE I WASNT IN ENOUGH OF ONE ALREADY. roar.

[racoons > you]

I WANT TO f**king DIE, AND KILL EVERYONE ELSE WITH ME!

AND THATS SELFISH, IMMATURE AND DRAMATIC BUT I DONT CARE. SO YOU KNOW WHAT, WORDL YES IM IN A BAD MOOD. YES IM UPSET. IM NOT BLOODY FINE, AND I DONT CARE IF IVE HURT YOU.

o, and dear cb diary, because i forgot that part.

BUT SERIOUSLY. THIS IS A BITCH AND A HALF. YES THERE ARE KIDS STARVING IN AFRICA, BUT I WANT TO BE SELFISH, AND EAT LOTS OF FISHSTICKS.

SO THERE.

[*tweeak*]

OH WHO CARES IF YOURE SELFISH, JUST COME VISIT ME AND ALL WE BE OKAY AGAIN. OKAY WELL MAYBE NOT BUT IT WILL IF WE RUN AWAY TO RALEIGH. AHAHAHAHA. BUT STILL. FUCKFUCKFUCK.

YES, THE CAP LOCKS BUG ME TOO, BUT THEYRE ENTIRELY NECESSARY, I SWEAR

[racoons > you]

indeed! ROADTRIP!!!!!!!

wth me you marissa as our driver, kate rae samuel b/c he's always good, and everyone else.... cigarettes, alcohol, and lots of ramen. hellz yes!

sorry, cb diary, but i tend to forget things liek this

[*tweeak*]

we should we should. although samuel might want to bring amber, which wouod end our trip in a matter of seconds, so well have to make sure they thoroughly hate each other by then. perhaps well meetalicia along the way, as shes set on an alcohol roadtrip filled summer herself

oh, skrew you, cb diary

[racoons > you]

dear cb diary, and feloow cb members,

sory about spammingup the old diary, but desperate times call for desperate measures.

i havent met amber, so i dont know... but maybe it will be fun to have a relationship drama along the way, for the sake of the moive... i mean one of them can leave the other, and the other can chase them through rain filled streets while we watch from atall building, and crash into a railing as they catch up, cry, and make up etc, will be tres dramatic

romanc ein downtown raliegh!!!!!!!!!!!

o my! why dont we just bring alecia with us, it will save gas, but we do need some other guys, otherwise i will go insane,my love, so who can join us?

[*tweeak*]

indeed.

relationshis would be great for the sake of the movie were it not amber and samuel. shudder immence. amber is a pain. even though she gets along with the most jameslike people, i think youd hate her. maybe just because i say so. im so nice to my friends.

ok, we can bring alecia too. i think were running out of space though. but hell, were breaking like 50 laws already, so why not add another to the list?

well, we can bring samuel. well just...i dunno, kidnap him or somehing. who else do you like that is male?