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[angel-roh]

Dear Createblog Diary,

I'm going to my church retreat called the Dive Winter Retreat 2005. I hope this year retreat will be much better than last year. I hope this years will improve more better. About more than 200 people are coming to our retreat. I am very thankful for the people who registered to go the retreat. I hope they didn't come for friends, I hope they came for God, to have a relationship with God and to get closer with God. I hope we all have the moment to share our memories, and our cries to one another. I hope a lot of people reach-out to God with all of their strength.

I hope the skits are not that bad. I'm more likely a stage-freight, so I hope somehow the skits are not that scary or too embarrasing. Because I'm not good at being an embarrassing girl in the center of all attention. Well I'm good at ghost stuff, I mean heck ya I'll do it. But something like church-related stuff. I'm not so good at it because I can forget lots of scripts. I hope I do good this time.

Last year, I messed up on the skit. Because I was too scared, too nervous, forgot my lines that I messed up our group's skit. Our skit was kinda not good, but at least we worked out our best to fit the team into a wonderful time.

I'm glad that my new friend, Mal Kuem as known as Jessica Kim is going to the retreat with me. I hope she will say the word "Wow, I really love this retreat!" I want to hear that, so I can be happy and be satisfied with her comment. I know I didn't create this retreat, but I would be glad to hear people saying that they love it because Dive Youth Ministry is part of my family. Even though I wasn't there since I was a baby. But still it's been 3 1/2 years with this Youth Group. I know half of the people at our church.

I hope the foods at our retreat is not that bad because I'm not going to bring any foods from the Korean store. I was going to go to the Korean store to buy some foods, but then again my brother said he's going somewhere, so he can't take me. Also my mom is at work. Gosh, I wish I had a car. It's not so fun if you don't have a car because you can't go anywhere you want and everyone's busy that you have to stay home or you can take the bus. But then again, I hate buses. Well I'm supposed to overcome my fears on buses, but I don't want to ride on it.

I wish my mom didn't had to go to the work today because I really want to buy some foods before I head to the church! Oh man, we have to ride the school bus for 2 1/2 hours. It sucks, but oh wells so many people are going, so we need a lot of buses. I'm going to get a headache because school bus seats are not good. Also they don't even have a bathroom. How am I going to live?

Last year, our buses was like those traveling bus where it's very luxurious looking. But since there's so many people coming, our pastors decided that they use the school buses instead. Oh God be there for us because I cannot stand a school bus, but I hope you be there to save me from the bus sickness for 2 hours.

I hope that our pastor, Derek will let us use the heat in the worship building because after I came back from the retreat, I was very sick. I don't want to get sick again because I'm sick right now. I just don't want to get worse. It wasn't so fair for him to turn off the heat. I thought that was a baddest idea. I know there people who sleeps if there's a heat in the building. But, even it's cold, people can still sleep and they can get cold. I hate that. I hope he changes his mind on the heating part and let us use the heating machine, so we can warm ourselves. I heard that half of them hated when he turned off the heater because everyone was hecka cold and couldn't concentrate during the Worship service.

I hated it too because I couldn't concentrate and I was so sick that I was going to throw up from eating foods at the cafeteria. The foods was kinda gross, it wasn't my favorite foods. But I had to eat it cause the restaurants are far away from us and besides it's free. Right now I am listening to "Here with me" by ATB. This music is so beautiful. I really love it and glad that I have it. It was very hard to get it. It took me months to get it too. Because this song isn't that popular and so not many people had it at winmx.

Anyways right now, I'm thinking about the retreat still and right now I am hungry. But I need to take a shower, but then again, I don't want to take a shower because I'm so tired right now. I woke up at around 6:30am. So I can see my sister go to school. I wish my sister didn't wake me up that early because I wanted to sleep more! Anyways when I get to the retreat, I hope we get the good cabins! The same cabins that we had last year.

Oh man, I think I need to go to the bathroom real bad, but right now I'm lazy cause like I said, I'm tired haha. So many stuff in my mind, just don't know what to do first. Oh yeah the song I'm hearing "Here with me". When I listen to this song, it feels like heaven. It's so soft and relaxing. It's a techno/trance song. But more likely a trance song. I was so happy when I got this song because I thought I was never gona get this song and that I had to buy the song from the Itunes Music Store, but no. I hate buying it from the site. Well Online Shopping are okay, but not always okay like buying music instead of downloading it. Oh yeah in the end of "Here with me" It has a bird chirping sounds, which makes it all better. But sometimes it's a creepy song when you're all alone because in the end part, it's not that fun to hear. So I probably just skip it or maybe... I'll just cut it. Anyways I'm repeating this song too.

As you know, I'm typing too much because I have so much in my mind that I want to let it out. So instead of talking to myself, I decided to post it in the createBlog diary. Right now, the weather is very sunny. I like that, but then again it's not hot outside. Just breezy. Sadly to hear that, but at least it's sunny. I hope it's sunny at Olympia, Washington. The main capital of Washington State. That's where we going for our retreat. Black Lake, Olympia. I wonder why it's called Black Lake. I mean it's not the color of black. Anyways I remember when Sarah Kim and Eugene Yun jumped off to the lake and got into a big trouble. Too bad for them, but they were shivering like they were living inside a freezer.

I hope the games at the retreat will be great and not something like a fear factor type. Well last year, it wasn't like that. But few years ago, yes haha. Oh my gosh, if they involve eating bugs games, I'm out. I can't do it. Not even for the moneys or cars. I'm even too afraid to go near an insect or a flying insect. Especially small flies haha. Right now I am dancing and not thinking because the thinking problems are just too stressing.

Hm, I think I should do update my xanga. I mean today is the retreat? I don't know... maybe not. Because LIKE I SAID, I'm freakkin' lazy haha. You know I made my own message board at Invision board. But I never came back to it. Too sad too hear that. I mean it took me 3 hours to understand the freaking message boards haha. It gived me a huge headache mark to my brain.

Ay I want to watch Jimmy Neutron right now. I felt like I should watch it. Well I won't force myself, but I love that show because I love it when he invents cool neat stuff. I like technologies stuff. I love making them too. Well I haven't created any cool stuff because I'm not good at technology stuffs. I'm even suck at math and science. So I don't think it will cross my line haha.

Sigh I wish my sister was here. RIGHT NOW. But school is not over until 2:25pm. And since she rides the bus, it takes her 2:45pm to get here. I miss my mom and my sister right now. My moms at work and I'm home alone. I hope the retreat doesn't bore me. Oh man, we're going to be at Olympia in a nighttime again. Dammit. Then it's going to be cold and hard to sleep. O dear, I hope Mal Kuem is in my cabin group. I really do hope so. I mean it's her first time. I accidentally spelled her name into Mal Guem because I thought it was Mal Guem. Dang her name is so interesting that is spelled like 맑음.

It's sad to hear that Sharon Kim is not going. But it's great to hear that Saejoo Lee is going! Eesh Young Ji Kim is going to New York. Well it's not her fault. She's going there to check up on colleges at New York. I guess she wants to attend the colleges at New York. I envy her cause she's like in the highest math class at high school. She's so smart. But I still love her as a friend. She's such a forgiving friend and also a funny person too. She knows how to make a person laugh. So a lot of guys like her because she has a lot of sense of humors.

Okay, I am very weak right now. I'm a weakest position right now. What should I do? If only my sister was here, she would've helped me by now. Sigh... I'm sucha little sister to my sister. I act like a little sister to her when I'm like older than her. Anyways I hope we don't get late to the church! I want to sit with Mal Kuem in the bus, so I hope we get our seats! Gosh school buses. Just thinking of it makes me MAD. I bet Esther Hong, Steven Byeon, Rosanne Lee, Jonathan Chong, etc. I bet they will ride their own car to the retreat. Not fair. They get to ride in their own car and get to turn on loud musics. Oh hum...

Okay I'll stop here, Diary. I'm getting a headache right now.

---- Susan

[*Kathleen*]

Dear Diary,
Does anyone besides me acutally really care to read these entries? Yeah, didn't think so.

[*stephinika*]

^^
sometimes....

dear cb diary:

today was so fun. the 2 of them came over...good times. but its silly i guess...when they tease me sometimes, it actually almost hurts even though i know they don't mean it...its ridiculous really, but when the people i truly care about tease me too much i sometimes get offended...which is stupid cause i KNOW they're joking...meh. kinda glad one of them came too, otherwise if it was just me with the other...oh dear. anyways, it was still fun. i need to practice my skills at those games haha...anyways, tomorrow will be fun too. i can't wait.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,
I've been single for seven months. Unbelievable, even to myself, really.
I hate feeling lonely though; I want to hook up with someone..
Party on Friday? I hope so.
-Me.

[toodlepops.]

Dear CreateBlog Diary,

life is...well, yea, the usual.
I wish i was smarter. or maybe if i can study last-minute but still get good grades.

On the other hand, i have this friend called A and i think she's been lying to me aLot lately. i mena, i've noticed since last year but i have no idea to tell her off. day after day, she keeps talking bout stuuff but i don't even know if it's true.

I had an interview by my seniors. they asked me a question which i didn't want to answer. i don't know if they're gonna look at me the same way again.

</sigh>

[Wishful_Dream]

Dear Createblog Diary,

Once again, life is getting retarded. Nothing to do. Failin PE. May not make it to honor roll. Will get laughed at by everyone in my stupid class. Great. Just great. Not even sleeping.. Eyes hurt... Now, to hit the CB arcade and play games! Then.. two hours from now.. I will go jogging.

Sincerely,
Me.

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

i am getting better, as usual. but i am not getting too excited because i have gotten better in the past and gotten sick the next day..soooo.....

i have to babysit my cousin tonight but i think it will be alright. i am still sick so all i plan on doing is laying down and watching some television. hopefully he will not be that bad!

--Frankie

[Looow]

Dear CB Diary,
Just had a talk with her. Gosh I'm so f**king over it all. Why did I miss them? Eff them. I hate them. Such f**king idiots. Bitches.They did so much to a person I love. How could they?

[xXirockhardXx]

Dear Createblog diary,

This is my first time writing in you. lol. so lets beging with today in the morning...

It was around 6 am and i was watching the TBS video when all of a sudden a hear thunder! it was horribly(i think i just made that word up ) scary! Me and my younguer sister where so scared. So we decided to try to "ignore" it but it didnt really work lol. So we just kept watching the tv. Later on in the day my other lil sister got sick. And started to vomit ughhh how nasty but thats life. Right now im just watching tv.

I really want a boyfriend. Its been almost a year without one. But i guess i got to get use to it.

My life with friends is ok. But sometimes i get really tiked off because they just keep making fun of me But if i say something about them (playing around i mean) they get really mad. I dont even think my "friends" like me My life is so shity!

andrea <3

[Rachel]

Dear cB diary,
I, kathleen, seem to read the longer ones more than the shorter...i want to see what was soo important that it took up 1/2 the damn page.

anyways...this past week has been complicated and stupid. school was ridiculus, teachers were being big whores and liked giving tests. i got an 8/20 on a chem quiz, suprisingly was not the lowest *2/10 was*ahaha

v-day was okay, i didn't really seem tom that much until the end of the day and we decided to celebrate on tuesday. so tuesday afternoon rolls around and he comes over after school...WITH ROSES!!! i gave him a huge hug and some kisses =). hes freakin adorable sometimes

tom and i got into a stupid fight on wednesday night and i was mad at him on thursday but then i got over it when he kissed me in the hall.

last night might have been on the LAMEST fridays ever. jay kicked his sister outta the car so he could go blaze and we picked her up. she is one ill girl. we hung out at wendys for like an hour then went back to toms and i had a headache. i decided to be a bitch but then gave into toms puppy dog eyes and sneaky kisses.

today i got up early and drove with Bruce the dumbass for an hour then had to watch 2 other weirdos drive. twas gay. then i went and picked up my prom dress!!!!!! it is sooo pretty, ill post a picture later =)
and now im bored and sitting here with a bitch of a headache again!!! SUHWEEEEET

<3Rachel

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary...

another pretty good weekend. surprisingly. third in a row...its rather amazing actually. yesterday was fun. but...towards the end i felt...funny. its so hard to explain...i don't know what the feeling was...confusing? doubt? guilt? i don't even know. bleh. i miss you. both.

[miss barnes]

Dear CB diary

i'm sick....AGAIN! third time this year.

reekah

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm so bored. =/ Bleh

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary:

i just realized what a potential er...hazard is coming up this weekend. oh no.

[demolished]

dear cb

my teacher gave my too much hwk and reminders ... i'm done with the rest except .. 2 page report and i need to study for 2 quiz =[ .. sucks. .

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

i went to my grands last night and ended up spending the night...it was alright. the only reason why i spent the night was because i knew i was going to get money today if i did work. i didn't know exactly what i was going to be doing but i knew it was going to be easy! i ended up getting $15 for just changing some lightbulbs and some batteries in the smoke detectors!

and i have TAKS tomorrow! it is going to suck.

--Frankie

[*mishyerr*]

Dear CB.

Today I broke my own heart. I was my fault. It was my jealousy. It was uncontrollable, my despicable anger. It was disgusting. It was terrible.
I broke it, yes. I shattered it into millions of droplets of tears. It was all my fault. He didn't mean to. He didn't intentionally do anything. I broke it. Broke it.

~Michelle.

[Heathasm]

dear cb diary i think im falling in love with my best friends boyfriend!!!! AHHHHHHHHH

[Teesa]

Dear Cb diary,
I need to start on homework, but I really don't want to..ARGH.
teesa

[miss barnes]

dear CB diary,

i think something is seriously wrong with me. i'm soo sick of being sick. i just want to be able to breath normally and not cough or have to clear my throat every damn minute or have these f**king MIGRAINES!! omg..these head thingys are destroying my life. my is always hurting. it just wont stop. its hurting right now....

reekah

[heyyfrankie]

Dear Createblog Diary,

yeah, today was taks. it was so BORING! it did suck; just like i said it was! but i am sure that i did really good there were only four problems that i think i missed but i still made educated guesses on them so ya know!

after i came home, me and edwin hung out and laughed alot! it was great! i love that kid!

tomorrow is going to be a boring a day but i am sure that i will make it through. if i don't, i will miss y'all!

--Frankie

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
Goodness gracious, I'm so anxious. (oh that rhymes!)
*sigh* I give up. It's not even worth it anymore. Its a waste of time. I've been so blind. What a loser, I am.

[Chii]

Dear createBlog diary,

oh my god...i am so tired of hearing jordan bitch about his girlfriend he's a great person and everything from what i've witnessed...but i think that he has a problem with committment and love...he once said that he hated his mother...that may be a factor. his girlfriend does seem like a crazy psycho...she calls nonstop and from what i hear on his end, she's loves him but she just doesn't really know how to be in a relationship...when you have problems you fix them, you don't let them fester...it's kind of his own fault if he sticks with her. but then again this is all none of my business because i barely know him...but i hope for the best...he seems like such a cool person, i think he deserves more than life is currently giving him. props to my brother for trying to cheer him up by making light of the situation...he's a great person too, i hope he continues to be himself...especially when jordan is so stressed...

enough about that...i've been sick for the last few days and i feel like complete sh*t right now because of this goddamn headache...at least my eyes aren't puffy from sneezing anymore...i hate it that my left eye waters whenever i feel like i have to sneeze...ugh it looked as if i was crying

i love johnny...our love is special, i love him so much...if we ever separated i'd never be able to see him again...i'd hate to be reminded that he doesn't want to be with me...he's my only one, my everything...i'll love him more than i'll ever even know...

much love,
M.L. x3

[nhj_2006]

argg, ever since i move to this new place, life sucks

he told me that he doesnt love me anymore. i wonder if he really meant it. he said he would call, but he didnt. life is just goin down hill from here. nothing ever interests my life anymore. what should i do!

[Looow]

Dear Createblog Diary,
I'm at school right now. I'm so hungry =/ Oh blah. I'm so worried about everything right now. Eerything is going wrong. this sucks big time