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[iiiiiiiYON]

i have a lover.i walk dangerously against the edge of love.i only find myself in relationships with women that have a pre determined end.this one had heartbreak and unbearable written all over it from the start.i didnt see it all the time but looking back makes so much sense.i have no control and thats what makes me want her.that makes me want to hold her with equal amounts of passion.we had led a desctructive life of controversy.
i dont want to be here,i want to live a life without envy.without doubt or conflict.she is the darker side wich i am drawn to almost hypnotically against my better judgment.there is so much excruciating pain that comes with love.one thing that come with all this pain we go through and all that love that hurts so bad that it stings the soul is that its actually rather equisite.
some times i wonder where all this emotion comes from.theres so much love put into a jar of life.drunk by the tommorow life and emerged from the great sprits of above.just so much hate follows along with this secret loving.the old and the wise is the heart to all this controversy.the heart to all this rejecting.yet there is the bond between friends that could lead into conflict.some times i wonder how this all happens.some times i wonder,why does this happen?
but show it no more my misery leaps in discuss showing to just get over her.but even my misery has left?how hateful can a mans soul be when his love has eluded his grasp which brang him his happiness,and when even his misery believed was to much for his comfort.now he has nothing.now i have nothing.nothing but a mere body scarcely of full of hope.come back...
no,forget my opinion and lead me to the universe of never more.where life does not continue.youve caused me enough pain.my mind has made its choice.and it clearly implies to just stop raoming in my mind.just stop coming to me.just let me be...