shyest man on the planet, thats me (...) Options

[soul4star]

To start off I am probably the shyest person on the planet. Its pretty sad. There are people, lots of ppl that want to talk to me, but I'm just too shy to talk to. I notice this, because girls that I know talk to me online, and we can talk...(dont talk to guys much) but when it comes to real life, I just cant talk. Then it crosses over online, I cant talk to them again.. pretty sad, I know.
Another thing that is a little frustrating is, my best friend, a person i can actually talk to can also talk to other people, especially the 2 girls I like (I know). And hes also almost exactly like me too, just everything is better, he gets better grades, he plays chess better, hes getting out of his 'shyness state' better, and hes just better than me in every way that makes me a person taht is interesting.
and these two paragraphs tie.. he also likes about the same girls as me, and he can talk to them, and they can talk back, it just makes me soo frustrated with my own life. This is more like the way I am releasing my pain.. Its not a pity cry. My life sucks.. literally, and if I could, I would give my hearing to a deaf person, because i sure dont need it.. and it woul help a more deserving person.. well, thank you for reading this waste of time. and sorry, for posting it on here. (I know I'm a sad person, but thats what comes with my kind of shyness..)