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[pink_tootsie]

my life is going so effing horrible my parents just got divorced and me and my moms are starting to seperate..it seems as if we fight every single night...

like tonight..my brother, grandparents, and dad came down here for a pre wedding thing and my brother came overr to my house to install satillite and everything was going fine..we had so much fun together...but this mornig he had to go home so i felt really sad and depressed that he left. at first i wanted to cry but i didnt. that happended tonight. i was crying in the bathroom and my mom and i were sending bad vibes towards each other then she told me to eat dinner..and then she asked me if i was crying cause my face was red and crap..and i said yes cause i wanted to let her know that i was feeling pain inside and she started to yell at me asking why did i cry..i mean when your daughter cries arent you suppose to lend a should and make her feel better?! then i said i cried becasuse my brother left..then she was like stop crying! and then she said you know what the nest time they come i'm not gonna let you see them or talk to them! and i'm like waht the hell? so i'm sitting here typing this out hopeing that it'll make me feel a littel better...
and from time to time we fight so bad that i feel like i need to kill myself..but i'm not htat stupid to do that..i'm not writing this so you could feel sorry for me just for me to let out some steam thats building inside of me..