me,my friend ,her crush n my "boyfriend", another long ass topic.read if u care. Options

[LittleLulu]

ok sorry u guys for ANOTHER long ass topic that im going to post.
this one is abt ..ALMOST everything thats going on right now in the love department of my life.
(1)---my "bf"
first off my so called "boyfriend"...whats with the quotations u ask? well,..u see..--i used to like him... then i didn't but i found out HE LIKED ME at the end of last year..
but i told him i dont like him that way n e more n we became best friends....but after that he just always said he didn't like me n e more right? even though i KNEW he was lying.. but for some odd reason i just started liking him...n so the beggining of this year he admitted he still liked me...n i told him i like him..n everything's good right?....WRONG!!!cuz i dont reli like him.

n now he's telling everyone that were going out...n i bet he thinks im his gf now.. but jus cuz im dating him doesn't make me his gf...n i dont want to break up with him soo soon cuz that wud just make me look like a player...i knoe that if i do it later ill jus be leading him on right?? BUT HE DOESN'T HAVE TO KNOE THAT I STOPPED LIKING HIM ABOUT 3 WEEKS AFTER WE START DATING...then i wont be known as "a player "....im thinking of breaking it off with him 2 weeks after his birthday, which is in november.,,1 is cuz for the reason ubove.. 2 is cuz i alreayd got his present n if i broke up with him before his birthday then it'll be weird since i'd still be invited to his party...n the whole thing wud just be akward.....n besides.. he's soo sweet n everything i cant find an excise to break it off wit him right now.

(2)..my "crush"
my "boyfriend"'s ....i've liked one of his best friends since the begining of last year...n i still do.. just not as much.,..but anyways ..yesterday.. when me n my bf n all of his friends.. including that guy.. we all went to see the grudge.....that guy kept on throwing popcorn at me n my "bf"...n i got a huge ass stain on my right shoulder..n during the movie i said to him" hey ******* stop throwing it"..n U KNOW WHAT HE SAID TO ME???" f*ck you bitch".... yea.. that what he said... i was seriously offended..but i didn't want to start a fight in a movie theatre...so i didn't ne thing abt it....later on, i told me "bf" abt it... n he said" ohh he jus doesn't like u for some odd reason...he doesn't want me to spend time with you"...n i asked him if he ever said n e thing abt me n he said" yea..but i dont wana tell u, i think it'll offend you"....n to tell the truth, i didn't want to hear it ....but im just.. SOOO heart broken....n i knoe this MAY sound desparet n pathetic.. but ... cud it be that he onli doesn't want my "bf" to spend time wit me cuz he's jelous???....yea wel... i was scretly "hoping" thats what it is.... but who am i kidding?

(3)---my best friend...n the guy she likes...n ME--uhhgg
in the begging of the year, theres this new kid, lets call him barky...n one of his friends asked my friend --anna-- is she would go out with barky as a joke... but anna didn't knoe that...n she didn't knew barky very well either.. so she said no...(btw anna is native, n barky is part chinese part flip..n anna never liked an asian guy before)....but now.. anna is like.. obsessed wit him..n so are alot of other girls... barky is new n he's reli shy n all....hes a good dresser n has a cute smile n blah blah blah but i dont knoe him that well so w.e,,,..but u see anna didn't knoe that barky's friend asking her out for barky was a joke..n she's all ""ohh i dont want to tell the other girls what happened early on in the year""....n i dont have the heart to tell her the truth....that barky never siad he likes her...n NOW... on top of ALL THAT....i think i might like barky
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(4)--thank you--FELIX!!!

felix! i promised u wud be in this post... lmao too bad i didn't get to seee you at RC....n thanks for all the help n support you've given me...i reli reli appreaciate it...ur such a good friend n EVERYTHING. lol u n ur "pep talks" lmao.

n e wayz.. god bless....n thank all of u who took the time to read it....i knoe.. its VERY messed upp

i hope u can give ur opinion... or w.e...of the situations...n i hope u guys wont bitch at me