a mess, i am in Options

[lilxroxy]

>< ohmigosh!!!!!!!

i so wnna die. rmbr that i said i liked a guy "spark" who is going out with my friend, becka??

well. i jst talked with a friend of mine..her name`s justine. justine`s sister is good friends with spark and becka. and well. justine told me that becka and spark aren`t going out and they are jst really close friends. and i felt like the world is closing in to me! i told him thru msn and txt msgs thru cell phone that i will "never talk to him agn" and i ignored him the whole day through friday. [typhoon hit us today. no school]

then i told my bFtE`s and they thot it was insane. and they cudn`t believe that they aren`t. and i asked a sophomore, stef. stef was laughing. she said they are and i got SO CONFUSED i mean, i got 2 answers from "two close friends of theirs." and i got them into a chat room. and they started to debate. i was jst reading their convo. and stef finally said that "they are. but becka doesn`t like sam anymore" i got 30+ msgs frm spark in an hour before. and i haven`t got a single msg from him for 3 days

what should i do?! i can`t face him tmrw during school...