Createblog diary., version 2 Options

[sharerol]

Dear cB diary,

I went out to lunch with my parents today. I still have to buy a present for my Chris Cringle, Jessica. Have to get it before Wednesday; Thursday at the latest. Yeah, well, just one more week 'til Christmas vacation. My friends are at the mall shopping for Christmas presents, and I'm stuck here. I'm kind of depressed right now. Although I always am...

--Cheryl

[Yemmerz]

Dear CB Diary,

I had my first track meet of the season. I sucked nuts, I came in last in the 300M dash and almost had an asthma attack. Oh yeah, I almost passed out too. How fun.

I kicked some minor ass in the 55M dash though. I kicked some white girl ass.

[demolished]

dear cb diary,

today i got alot of shits to tell you ...

i got 3.83 on m 1st trimaster report card. rest of my subjects are A + , except math ... i got a f**king B ! f**king bitch !! and my citizens are "S" whaaa daa f**kk ?? i never talk to anyone in my class ... teacher is so difficult .. so unfair .. !! o well ... if my teacher told me i'm gettin an b ... i wood probaly try much more harder .. it would of been a freakin A ... o well .. the teacher wont let me know anythinn even tho, she said she will let me know but she LiED to me!! RARGHHH !

i'm so bored and tired of xanga ... i wish i'm getting adope workshop program for christmas cuz my bro said he will install it but he never did .. .. thats sucks ... i want adope workshop now !! i also want to make my xanga looks better w/ better graphic but too bad .. i got no program to make my xanga looks nice .. not even photoshop ...

i'm not getting erops and comments to my xanga so i stop making my layouts .. and my xanga is defualt cuz no one looks at it ...... but now i'm making layouts for others .. not for myself no more ... i'm wastinn m time .. i'm make can girly xanga better den guyish xanga .. dunno why...

its soo late at night .. i'm so bored and i need help on html ... its soo f**ked up and its not workinn .. i stole it from someone and i dont know how to edit it .. hm .... ugh .. tired .. and sleepy tonight ... good nitee



PS. FORGIVE ME IF YOU DONT LIKE THE PART I mention aBOUT " STEALING"

[ANG33ZY]

dear cb diary,

I don't know right now. I'm in a confused state of mind.

[Nicolatofu]

dear createblog diary

God, i was ready to kill the kids i was babysitting on friday! They were bouncing off of the walls! i like two guys by the name of *******, but one's got a girlfriend and the other one, well, i think we're on the same level, but i won't say anything till he does. He's not even in the same grade as me, but not like that matters anymore these days. Although, i still have my eye on ****........ok who cares about boys anyways, i am ready to work on twoprojects and study for all my finals so if you'll excuse me.........



Nicole

[*Kathleen*]

dear clique diary

God, i was ready to kill the kids i was babysitting on friday! They were bouncing off of the walls! i like two guys by the name of *******, but one's got a girlfriend and the other one, well, i think we're on the same level, but i won't say anything till he does. He's not even in the same grade as me, but not like that matters anymore these days. Although, i still have my eye on ****........ok who cares about boys anyways, i am ready to work on twoprojects and study for all my finals so if you'll excuse me.........



Nicole

Clique Diary?
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Anywho, dear createBlog Diary,

I haven't confided in you in awhile. Things are getting better at home and in school [I suppose], but horribly when concerning friends. I can't seem to stand peoples' ignorance of the world around them. I wish their eyes weren't closed - I could show them. Blah. Their incompetence saddens me. It truly does.

-Kathleen

[pbear]

dear cB diary,

i'm so lonely. i just want to curl up and sleep forever.

[sharerol]

Dear cB diary,

I like my new haircut. My friends think it's so "sophisticated and mature". I have a growing dislike of the words "mature" and "immature" now. People really do misuse the meanings. Anywho, my friends all gave me crappy gifts this year. Pffft...Well, winter break is finally here. Yay! I guess that's all I have to say then...

--Cheryl

[theused652]

today wasnt that good

[Nicolatofu]

Clique Diary?
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Anywho, dear createBlog Diary,

I haven't confided in you in awhile. Things are getting better at home and in school [I suppose], but horribly when concerning friends. I can't seem to stand peoples' ignorance of the world around them. I wish their eyes weren't closed - I could show them. Blah. Their incompetence saddens me. It truly does.

-Kathleen

hahahaha whoopsies! i'll fix that......
moving on.........
Dear createblog diary:
Babysat again on friday. Went ice skating with Melissa on Saturday. Let's just say i won't be ice skating again anytime in the near future. Yesterday had an early christmas dinner with my mom's friend's family. Which means my ex was here oh well. we have this thing where we pretend neither exists. He started it, so now i do it too. Just got out the shower. It was so cold yesterday, we also had our first snow. Well that's it. I'm hungry *runs to kitchen and makes peanut butter sandwich*

Love love love love!
Nicole

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog Diary,

It's been horrible around here lately. It really has. Ever since PSAT and SAT came in, at least. I didn't do too badly on the PSAT, but it's not satisfactory, not even in my opinion. 209, I didn't even break the 70s for critical reading and math. How pathetic. I got fullscore on writing though, which was surprising. I was really disappointed with my SAT score though. Really disappointed. 1350 for a first try isn't bad, I suppose, but even though it doesn't count, the parents have been bitching nonstop.

Thursday night, they think I went to a party. I was at Jenn's house. We were working on our fcuking essays that were due the next day. I wasn't about to come home and tell my parents I had an essay due the next day that I hadn't started on, so I told them I was working on a project with Jenn. But wow, it's horrible how parents always assume the worst about you. Always.

I found out yesterday that mum takes advantage of any trust I put into her at all. She read my email when I minimized the window so she could use the computer. She told me she wouldn't. I can't believe I was stupid enough to believe her. Really now. Well, mum's accusing me of being a whore and such. Nothing new, but it hurts all the same. If I can't get any support from my parents, if I can't even have any friends because of my parents, who the hell am I supposed to turn to?

But I've realized something in the past couple of weeks. I love writing. Not so much the content, but just the physical act of writing stuff down. It's something new to me, I'll admit. It's awesome though. It won't criticize me, but it's always there to listen. Always. Unlike the people around me, it's stable. It's always there to listen and it'll never fail me, ever.

And wow, I was just checking my email and now I'm wondering who the hell boREDeXboi on xanga is. Hn. Probably not worth my time, just as this is no longer insightful. So I'll cut it here. Until next time, diary.

-Anna.

[faithin_felix]

dear diary,

mom is being stupid again won't let me go sleepover for no reason...

report card which was weeks ago.

english c+
math b
ss b
chemistry b
physics b
french b
social psychology a
art a

>> faithin felix

[yummy_delight]

^ HAPPY BIRTHDAY FELIX!

dear cb diary,

what is it with all the assholes i fall for?

andrew was bad luck. i KNOW it.

love, Lauren

[weirdness]

dear createblog diary,

i bored again.
cant wait til christmas vaca.
people *coughcough* wont talk to me on aim
=(

-nancy

[ANG33ZY]

dear cb diary


Today for a split second I felt it. I walked out my front door and stood out on the front step. I looked around at everything in front of me & when I felt the cold .. I felt it. That feeling -- The feeling that ran through my body as I shivered, and it traveled to my head down to my toes. To the back of my mind, to the bottom of my heart. I knew it when it came, and I knew what it was when it left. And for that split second, I knew that I felt it ..because I remembered. It was familiar. Though it only lasted a moment. I knew because it was true. I missed you.

ah ahhhh ahh.

[pbear]

dear diary,

we have not talked in weeks. i think i'm dying slowly.

[*stephinika*]

dear cb diary,

parents suck. seriously.

[angel-roh]

Dear Diary,

I think I'm going to set my heart free for Steven (my crush)... I don't know it's hard. But Yeah... I don't know when I'll stop loving him.. Ay I don't know. I kinda want to keep on loving him. Because I don't want to date any other guys until I graduate High School, so yeah... I need help

-Susan

[*Azarel*]

Dear cB diary,

What the fuck am I still doing here? Seriously. I hate how people here are immature, ignorant, incompetent. And yet I'm here, because I told him that I'd stay. People here assume so much shit about everyone else, and yet they still complain about other people when they themselves are the ones falling for others' guises. Why am I here? Answer me, goddammit.

-Me.

[ANG33ZY]

Dear CB Diary,

Ahh man. I feel like crying. I'm scared. I can't think right now. My friend tried to kill herself .. her cousin went to her house and told my cousin there was blood all over the bed & the computer. omfg. She cut herself on her arms and her thighs. Ah help. I don't know what's going on right now, neither my cousin and her friends. They're all trying to call her, but she's not picking up. OMFG. I don't understand. ;( I hope she's alright.

[inthemudhole]

Hi again.
So it's Christmas Eve..
Joy.
I don't know why, but this year isn't too exciting for Christmas on the whole..
I shopped my ass off, and that's about it.

Anyway.
So.. hi.
Life's been basically sucky lately, and I was getting all suicidal again earlier today.. I can't take much more of some of this shit.

My ex IMed me earlier. He apologized for being such a bitch to me lately.. I thought that was a bit considerate of him, for once.

Bye.

[*Azarel*]

Dear createBlog diary,

Maybe I write in here too much, but I can't help it, really. Something's wrong. I don't know what, I just can't place it, but I know that something's just not right. It's always like this. I'm too selfish and stupid to try and figure it out because I know it'll just cause me more pain. I can't take the hurt sometimes, a lot of the time. I'm so fucking selfish, always thinking about myself and never about anyone else. I'm ashamed, and yet I don't change my ways. I don't get it. I never did.

I thought I'd convinced myself that I was finished with long-distance and online relationships. I thought I told myself that I wouldn't get myself emotionally involved with anyone anymore. Apparently I lied. I can't help it though. I want to be loved, need to be loved. What is the meaning of my existence, my very being if I'm not loved, if I don't love people? I know it won't last. It never does. I know my heart will be shattered. It always is. I'll be alone to pick up the broken pieces, but after a while I get used to the pain. And then it starts all over again when the hurt is renewed. I don't know why I can't even keep a simple fucking promise to myself.

How many times have I set myself up to be disappointed? Innumerable. Why haven't I learned? No idea. I'm pathetic. It'll never turn out the way I want it to, it'll never be perfect. It's never happened that way before, everything that I've ever cared about has always been stripped away from me, so why should it be different this time? I need to grow up and stop being so naïve. I need to stop believing in fairytale endings. This is real life. There will be disappointment after disappointment, and I need to get used to it. I need to get over myself, need to get used to it. It won't dull. It won't. This is life. Live and learn.

-Me.

[Saeglopur]

Dear Diary,

... and a merry christmas to you too.


Some children grow up with bad influences. Last night (well, rather evening if I dare do say so myself..) my cousin Andre took my cousin Ray's hand and placed it on my friend Charisse's butt. It's immoral! Now I'm ashamed how Andre presents himself as a innocent little 10 year old to people like my cousin Ling and the parents but he acts so... I don't know... he acts like a cretin when he's around me and the cousins I hang out with.

Like for example, I opened one of my gifts (it was one in the morning.. we tend to stay up late.) and there's a shirt and I said, "Oh I love it!" but suddenly, he says, "It's too small for you." Like I couldn't hear it.

He's too braggadacio.

He just ruins christmas for everyone.

[inthemudhole]

Dear diary..

So it's Christmas today. <_<
Am I supposed to be excited about that, or something?
I guess my day wasn't as bad as I was thinking it would be.. I have a very generous and kind-hearted family now that I think about it.
We're not exactly rich, but yet they sacrficed a lot just to get me some presents that they thought that I would enjoy. They tried hard to make it a good and enjoyable day. Well, they.. succeeded. They gave me a guitar, and we're having a nice meal. =)

So I guess this was one of my better days..

[faithin_felix]

dear diary,

haven't posted here in a while. christmas today, so what? it's just a day like every other day, like...my birthday few days ago. doesn't mean anything!

>>faithin felix