abstinence, my story - comment! Options

[justchillen]

the plans were set for july 4th. we had all pallned to go out and get trashed just like everyone else does on the 4th. But there will be no more drunken times for me. One little thing can really change your life forever.

If there was one thing i could tell any teenage girl it would be to practice abstinence. i learned my lesson with playing with sex. they say out of every wrong doing you learn something right, well in this doing.. i learned my lesson just a little too early in life.

its scary. if u dont practice safe sex you really have something in store for you. you think, you think & you think the morning after. the first time i didnt practice safe sex i spent the next few days crying. because you think "oh my God what have i just got myself into?", "God i hope im not pregnant" "did he give me some kind of sexually transmitted disease?"

it doesnt matter who it is, if you dont want to have sex with them DONT! its almost like rape with concent, the whole time your ding dong so many thoughts run across your head. and then they become actions. like " OK STOP THAT HURTS TOO BAD" 3 mins later hes still doing it and then finally deciedes to stop, takes a few breaths and then says "let me stick it in you one more time" and without thinking about it you say "ok"

its almost like you WANT to make him happy. but in my case with him i was just another hoe he f**ked. like you DONT want to do it, but you dont want him to be mad at you. here it does back to the subject it doesnt matter who it is. like in my case this boy was FINE, he was popular.. everything i had ever dreamed about . . and HE wanted to be with ME.. right then its it made you so happy that someone..that special wanted to be with YOU.. i think thats pretty much the only reason i slept with him.

but there is a twist to my story.. it wasnt just 1 boy .. it was 2..i was their "pet" for that night.. after 1 stopped..the other started.. i felt soooo dirty..i didnt even think they were using me..bc i made sure they werent going to use me..like thats all i was saying to them "God im gonna fell so dirty" and "but i dont want yall to use me just for sex" .. oh goodness did they re-assure me that they WERE NOT using me... HAHHAHAHA and i was actually desperat enough to believe it.

another big lesson i learned was that if you are going to have sex..use protection. the boys in the 1st place were going to use condoms, but it wouldnt let them do some of the things they wanted to do..whatever that was..and so i just went along with it

the aftereffects of have sex are very stressful and depressing. the 1st week or two after i had had sex was very rough, i was sick like i had never been before. I thought about it every other minute, something wheather it be a song i heard, or a truck i saw lead me back to it all.. there was no "forgetting it" or "ill just get over it all in a month or 2" no, this was something i did that was going to be with me wheather i liked it or not.

after wead sex i would talk to his friend about him alot. wel his friend went back and told the boy everything i had said..and then the boy said that i was obsessed with him and i meant nothing to him, & that he didnt have respect for me. ME be obsessed with YOU? YEAH ill admit.. i was but what did you expect you took my virginity.. and then had sex with me numerous times after..and didnt have respect for me? that had to have been the thing that hurt the most.. just the fact that you are the one who pressured ME into it & i had no say in it all.

again, after we had sex i was sick like i had never been. i talked to some of my friends who were mothers and told them what i was going through and they thought forsure i was pregnant... i was scared. oh boy was i. . i sat and cried, then would smile, because maybe i was going to get something good out of this bad situation. i picked out names, looked at baby clothes online.. i was somewhat happy...then reality struck me. " i was 14 & having a baby?" " emma what are you crazy?" "momma & granny are gonna flip-- everyone is going to dis-own me." then id cry some more. what was i going to tell my mom? what was she going to do? then one night i got really sick. the next morning my mom took me to the E.R. . .. the doctor asked me if i was sexually active... we asked my mother to leave the room .. and i told him "yes" he told me we should take a pregnancy test. so we did & the results came back ..after all of this..made a decision..to practice abstinence and preach about it..becos now..i have learned my lesson&got something good out of it

so i hope you will at least take something from my rambling and realize that sex is not all that great and it can hurt you in soo many ways.

[islandkiss]

lnice story but this should be in the writing forum.

[unfortunatekiwi]

wow. that's really deep. is that your true story? if it is...i'm truely sorry that it happened to you. the good thing is though...now...since you shared your mistake, other young teens that go on this forum can learn from that mistake. thanks a bunch.

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[sugarcultluver]

wow. that's really deep. is that your true story? if it is...i'm truely sorry that it happened to you. the good thing is though...now...since you shared your mistake, other young teens that go on this forum can learn from that mistake. thanks a bunch.

same here i'm very sorry about what happened thanks for posting this so that teenagers can realize what can happen when u have sex.

[babyytookrazie]

very touching, is it true? because if it is, you're really brave for bringing it out for CB to see. i couldn't have done that

[*AngelicEyz00*]

Your story made me cry... simply because I can understasnd what you [or the subject in the story] is going through or went through

[ryfitaDF]

that never would have happend if they never got "waisted".

RAISE YOUR FIST!

[tsohg]

Hey is this true?

Punks like that should be kicked and punched

Sorry to hear that, thats really deep

[aznriceboi]

im sorry to hear that, yea in this day and age, its hard for people to be abstience. i hope everything has turned out better.

off topic:
i was reading this one story in my history book that back in the old days like 1900's girls stuck this needle like thing into their vagina to prevent from getting rapped

[miszxjojo]

so you're 14 and pregnant ? woow =[
soo sorry about your storyy =(
but does your mom know that you're pregnant ? =O

[RyanWasHere]

I find it interesting how your Xanga is ibangwhiteboys, i guess you were just another hoe, if all this is a true story, of course.