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 Jun 7 2004, 07:15 PM
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 Feeel X  Group: Member Posts: 2,814 Joined: Jan 2004 Member No: 1,498  |
I have a boyfriend who grew up with me.
His name is Frans. I always thought of him as a friend until last year, when we went to a trip from a club. I found that I fell in love with him. Before that trip was over, I took a step and confessed my love for him. And soon we became a pair of lovers, but we loved each over in different ways. I always concentrated on him only, but by his side, there were so many other girls. To me, he was the only one, but to him, maybe I was just another girl. "Frans, do you want to go watch a movie?" I asked. Frans: "I can`t" Why? You need to study at home? I felt disappointment grabbing me. No I am going to meet a friend. He was always like that. He met girls in front of me, like it was nothing. To him, I was just a girlfriend. The word "love" only came out of my mouth. Since I knew him, I had never heard him say "I love you" before. To us, there weren`t any anniversaries at all. He didn`t say anything from the first day and it contineud till 100 days, 200 days Everyday, before we say goodbye, he would just hand me a doll, everyday, without fail. I don`t know why Then one day... Me: Um, Frans, I... Frans: What? don`t drag, just say.. Me: I love you. Frans: you...um, just take this doll and go home. That was how he ignored my 3 words and handed me the doll. Then he disappeared, like he was running away. The dolls I received from him everyday filled my room, There were many... The one day came, my 15th year old birthday. When I got up in the morning, I pictured a party with him and stranded myself in my room, waiting for his call. But ...lunch passed, dinner passed...and soon the sky was dark he still didn`t call. Then around 2am in the morning, he suddenly called me and woke me from my sleep. He told me to come out of my house. Still, I felt joy and I ran out happily. Me: Frans... Frans: Here...take this... Again, he handed me a little doll. Me: What`s this? Frans: I didn`t give it to you yesterday, so I am giving it to you now. I`m going home now, bye. Me: Wait, wait! Do you know what today is? Frans: Today? Huh? I felt so sad, I thought he woudl remember my birthday. He turned around and walked away like nothing had happen. Then I shouted..."Wait..." Frans: Did you have something to say? Me: Tell me, tell me you love me... Frans: What?! Me: Tell me I put my pathetic self behind and clung on to him. But he just said simple cold words and left. Frans: "I don`t want to say that I love someone so easily, if you are desperate to hear it, then find someone else." That was what he said. Then he ran off. My legs felt numb..and I collapsed to the ground. He didn`t want to say it easily... How could he! I felt that... Maybe he is not the right guy for me... After that day, I stranded myself at home crying, just crying. He didn`t call me, although I was waiting. He just continued handing me a doll every morning outside my house. That`s how those dolls piled up in my room... everyday After a month, I got myself together and went to school. But what made the pain resurface was that... I saw him on a street...with another girl... He had a smile on his face, one that he never showed me...as he touched the doll... I ran straight back home and looked at the dolls in my room, and tears fell... Why did he give these to me?? Those dolls are probably picked out by some other girls. In a fit of anger, I threw the dolls around. Then suddenly, the phone rang. It was him. He told me to come out to tbe bus stop outside my house. I tried to calm myself down and walked to the bus stop. I kept remiding myself that I am going to forget him, that it`s going to end. Then he came into my sight, holding a big doll. Frans: Jo, I thought you were pissed, you really came? I couldn`t help hating him, acting like nothing had happened and joking around. Soon, he held out the doll as usual. Me: I don`t need it. Frans: What? Why? I grabbed the doll from his hands and threw it on the road. Me: I don`t need this doll, I don`t need it anymore!! i don`t want to see a person like you again! I spitted out al the words that were inside me. But unlike other days, his eyes were shaking. "I`m sorry..." He apologized in a tiny voice. He then walked over to the road to pick up the doll... Me: You stupid! Why are you picking up the doll?! Just throw it away!!! Bet he ignored me and just went to pick up the doll. Then... Honk~~ Honk~~ With a loud honk, a big tuck was heading towards him. "Frans! Move! Move away!" I shouted.... But he didn`t hear me, he squatted down and picked up the doll. "Frans, move!" HONK~~ *Boom!* That sound, so terrifying. That`s how he went away from me. That`s how he went away without even opening his eyes to say one word to me. After that day, I had to go throught everyday with guiltiness and the sadness of losing him. And after spending two months like a crazy person, I took out the dolls. Those were the only gifts he left me since the day we started going out. I rememebered the days I spent with him and started to count the days- when we were in love.. "One...two... three..." That was how I started to count the dolls... "Four hundredand eighty four... four hundred and eight five..." It all ended with 485 dolls I then started to cry again, with a doll in my arms, I hugged it tightly, then suddenly... "I love you~~, I love you~~" I dropped the doll, shocked. "I...lo...ve..you??" I picked up the doll and pressed its stomach. "I love you~~ I love you~~" It can`t be! I pressed all the dolls` stomach as it piled on the side "I love you~~" "I love you~~" "I love you~~" Those words came out non-stop. "I love you~~" Why didn`t I realized that??? That his heart was always by my side, protecting me. Why didn`t I realize that he loved me this much... I took out the doll under the bed and pressed it`s stomach, that was the last doll, the one that fell on the road. It had his blood stain on it. The voice came out, the one that I was missing so much.... "Jo...Do you know what today is? We`ve been loving each other for 486 days. Do know what 486 is? I couldn`t say I love you.....Um... since I was too shy. If you forgive me and take this doll.. I will say that I love you..everday...till I die.. Jo... I love you!" The tears came flowing out of me. Why? Why? I asked God, why do I only know about all this now? He can`t be by my side, but he loved me until his last minute for that.. and for that reason.. to me..... it became courage... to live a beautiful life. |
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Jun 7 2004, 07:20 PM
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 Retired Member Group: Member Posts: 879 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 4,843 |
 that was so sadi cant believe it... sometimes people just dont notice the things you do |
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Jun 7 2004, 07:54 PM
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Feeel X Group: Member Posts: 2,814 Joined: Jan 2004 Member No: 1,498 |
QUOTE(v@por @ Jun 7 2004, 7:20 PM) that was so sadi cant believe it... sometimes people just dont notice the things you do i cried. and this is in writing?! sorry, didn't realize. because i didn't write it, so it wouldn't really be a story. my bad. |
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Jun 7 2004, 08:46 PM
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 Miss Alice Group: Member Posts: 1,257 Joined: Jan 2004 Member No: 1,454 |
omg i read this before but with korean names, but omg its sooo sad!!!!
i got all teary eyed!!!
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Jun 8 2004, 02:33 AM
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 Serious As A Heart Attack. Group: Member Posts: 2,292 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 11,344 |
omgosh that is soooo sad
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Jun 8 2004, 04:08 AM
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 Hi! I'm Dani :) Group: Member Posts: 5,637 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,369 |
omg that stori is soooooo sad
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Jun 8 2004, 06:35 PM
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 Goddess of Imaginary Light Group: Member Posts: 64 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 20,173 |
It's sooo sad
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Jun 8 2004, 06:52 PM
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 x3ania Group: Member Posts: 596 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 17,628 |
awww :::wipes tears:::
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Jun 8 2004, 07:01 PM
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 durian Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 13,124 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,860 |
OMG that story.. yea oka there's some teardrops in my eyes
It's traumatic how love can have a happy or errible ending...
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Jun 8 2004, 11:35 PM
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OMG....Sad Sad story... I feel so bad, and scared, and just heart ache...I remember having a girlfriend... I remember I gave her this teddy bear...When she broke up with me she gave it back, and I cried... I threw it into the ocean out of anger, and now i miss it because I miss her... Sad Sad Story....
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Jun 8 2004, 11:36 PM
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Feeel X Group: Member Posts: 2,814 Joined: Jan 2004 Member No: 1,498 |
awww its ok girls, i think im the only guy but i have a very caring heart so u can say im a girl, lol. yea, very sad. dont cry now...
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Jun 8 2004, 11:49 PM
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 ThePinkPanda Group: Member Posts: 760 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,168 |
That's so sad.. I'm still cryin..
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Jun 9 2004, 12:42 AM
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Feeel X Group: Member Posts: 2,814 Joined: Jan 2004 Member No: 1,498 |
aww its okay, don't cry. i might learn from that story and fold hearts and write i love you in it. and she will never open it. stop crying.
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Jun 9 2004, 12:59 AM
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ThePinkPanda Group: Member Posts: 760 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 13,168 |
QUOTE(faithin_felix @ Jun 8 2004, 9:42 PM) aww its okay, don't cry. i might learn from that story and fold hearts and write i love you in it. and she will never open it. stop crying. Aw.. that's sweet. I was thinkin the same thing. Still..
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Jun 9 2004, 05:00 AM
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I think I've already read this somewhere but no matter how many times you read it, good touching writing will always make you cry...
It just sucks when you never know something until it's too late... |
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Jun 9 2004, 11:19 PM
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Senior Member Group: Member Posts: 521 Joined: Apr 2004 Member No: 12,812 |
i've read this before on someone's xanga.
it's a tear-wringer... T_T i don't think i would have been able to smile though, after something like that. more like mourn for the rest of my life, since i'm not strong or brave. 
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Jun 10 2004, 07:55 PM
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Senior Member Group: Member Posts: 3,102 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 3,162 |
Y'know, it's so hard to go from reading happy love stories to ones like this.
I wasn't ready for it. 
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Jun 10 2004, 09:13 PM
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 n00b. and what?! Group: Member Posts: 15 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 21,442 |
i think im the only one who doesn`t think that was sad. ohkae it was but not enough for me to cry. i probably read enough to know good writing. or im just cold-hearted like that.
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Jun 11 2004, 09:29 AM
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 he`z gOt my heart*<3`o2.18.o1` Group: Member Posts: 1,662 Joined: Mar 2004 Member No: 6,338 |
:*( awww ..
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Jun 11 2004, 10:22 AM
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Senior Member Group: Member Posts: 1,443 Joined: May 2004 Member No: 18,050 |
that story was so sad but it was also so beautiful what he did for her
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Jun 12 2004, 05:06 PM
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 Look its... Group: Official Member Posts: 5,817 Joined: Feb 2004 Member No: 4,767 |
thast so cute. =( but made me so sad
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Jun 12 2004, 05:06 PM
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Jun 14 2004, 12:46 AM
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 dripping destruction Group: Staff Alumni Posts: 7,282 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 21,929 |
that one hits deep. sad. quite sad.
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Jun 15 2004, 08:27 PM
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Wow...I'll admit it...I cried. Ack. I can't help it (this is coming from a hopeless romantic). Wow...it's one of those stories that really do make you think about things and open your eyes a bit more. I think this still belongs in the Writing Forum because it's a short story. Don't worry.  Suga2fly - please don't spam like that. I know it's sad, but at least say a few words, okay? |
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Jul 16 2004, 07:13 PM
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 iGackt Fan! Group: Member Posts: 296 Joined: Jun 2004 Member No: 24,742 |
OMG... he really did love her... OMG... I'm even listening to a sad song right now!!
I think I need a hug... 
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