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[WishinguponmySta...]

I have been going out with this boy for about 7 months. I met him through a friend and we hit it off good, well I thought so. The first week we went out I really couldn't be with him because my parents wanted to meet him before I drive with him. He wanted to pick me up from work because I work late nights. My dad said he couldn't but he still came to visit me. I called him after I was done and he said he was going to the mall with his ex girlfriend! I kinda got pissed at him because I know how she is and I thought she would make a huge move on him and he would go for it, cause he still likes her. Well then the next day I worked all day and it was like from 12 to 10 and I called him to tell him I was on my dinner. He said he was already there and for me to come down. Well when I came down he wasn't alone, he had his ex there AGAIN, but the thing that really pissed me off was she was wearing his hat.... .......I think my boyfriend got the hint after I walked away and would not talk to him, because he hasn't talked to her since, or atleast that I know of. That was just in the beginning of our relationship. There are so many other things he did but he didn't care about my feelings or what not. One time I was baby sitting my nephew who wasn't even a year old and I slept over, well he texted me at 3 in the morning to tell me that he is getting high with a girl he likes. I wouldn't talk to him for two days and I bitched him out, but then he got the nerve to get mad at me for bitching him out. I ask him if he did anything with her but he said no. Lately I have been getting in these bitchy moods and taking it out on him, but when I get like this he will ignore me and treat me so meanly. I mean sometimes he will ask why do I look the way I look, and that I should lose some weight, but he says he is trying to help, when it just hurts my feelings. I know I am a lil big I weigh about 160, but its not really fat its just like a thing in the family, I can't freakin help it! I am like afraid to wear anything like shorts or a bathing suit because he might say something. Well anyways, yesterday I saw him looking at this girl and I said something and he wouldn't talk to me, he turned the music up in the car and ignored me, he dropped me off at my house and just left. I mean this isn't the first time I've seen him, and sometimes he will even tell me she is hot!! I am not kidding, he would be like wow she is really hot, or he tells me he would like to talk to her. So he came back after he left and we fought. I yelled at him about how he makes me feel so low and I feel like I am nothing to him and if he loves me so much he wouldn't look at other girls, well his repsone was I can't help it I am a guy!!!!!! That is no freaking excuse!!!!!! He told me I have issues and he knows I am depressed and that I am on meds. He blams it on my meds and doesn't take any responseiblity. I told him I wanted to break up because he wanted to too. When I was at work he came in and told me he couldn't stand not being with me I said ok and that we should talk later. After work he picked me up and brought me flowers. We never did talk. Then this morning I couldn't find my phone and found out that I left it in his car. He texted my sisters address telling me that he was going to the animal rescue lege. That kinda pissed me off because he told me he was going to come over in the morning and be with me before he goes to work. Now he said he will come over at 3 a half an hour before he has to go to work to change. I really don't know if I can take this much longer. But whenever I go to break it off I get totally upset and want to be back with him and I will end up going with him. I wish I could change his ways but I tell him about it and its like it never even sinks in. :sigh: sometimes I just wanna kill myself to get it all over and done with.