Need a female opinion Options

[Sriracha]

Let's say my name is John, and the name of my ex-girlfriend is Jane.

I am currently 22 years old, and Jane is 19 years of age. We dated for about ten months, and broke up about four months ago. The last time I ever saw and spoke to her was the 2nd of September, 2009. She was the first person I gave myself to, and vice versa. We really loved each other, and I still continue to do so to this very day, although she may have moved on.

During the time that we were dating, we decided to keep a 'journal.' We would write it in everyday, or try to, about whatever we want and would give it to each other as a gift for our one year (which we never made). I'm pretty sure she stopped writing in it after we broke up, but I still continue to write in my journal. I write about how much I miss her, reminisce on our memories, jot down lyrics and poems about love and heart break, and so on.

I want to stop writing in it after the journal fills up to the very last page, and use it as some symbolic meaning of 'closure.' I do need to move on, and stop living everyday based on my past memories. I don't know if I will ever give the journal to Jane or not but if I ever were to...

My real question to the ladies: how would you feel if you were Jane and randomly received a journal one day? Would you read it? Would you laugh at it and think of John as some pathetic being? would you be flattered? What would your initial thoughts be?