if things were different Options

[co0nster421]

if things were different mom
id tell you that i love you each and everyday
id hug u tightly before i go to school
id pick up flowers on the way home

but things aren't this way mom
i loose a piece of you everyday
the way i lost you
in the cruelest way

i grew up when i lost you mom
lost my hope and faith in everything
crying every night wont you back
so i turned cold and heartless this way

i see you in the hospital ro0m mom
i wish you can hear my voice
so maybe you can hear one last time
how much i long for one last word

you left me in that hospital today mom
yet not a single tear i shed for you
it hasnt hit me yet right now
so everything is so... surreal

seeing your eyes close one last time mom
im not going to lose you all at once though
ill lose you in pieces
very small pieces

the scent from your clothes will fade slowly mom
the voice in my mind of you will fade as well
the pictures will last a life time though
but my memories will die when i do to0

watching life go on without you mom
is like breathing without air
my love will always be here though
its to0 bad you will never be there

i wish i can share more things with you mom
its way to0 late for that anymore
somethings are once in a lifetime
ill just have to move on

it really sucks today mom
you're just some memory in the past
i never wanted those memories
i just want to make them with you today

[Yemmerz]

That was sad (but good).
Is this off of personal expierence?