hard times.. please help :-(, people in mah life don't really care Options

[hot_music_mami]

okay so im usually really happy n all, but the past week has been horrible...
i was going out wit a jerk for about a year, and finally, a month ago, i cut the "relationship" off..... i decided that if i pushed him away hard enough, then i wuldnt go back to him, so i told him i hated him n stuff.. we didnt talk for a month cuz i didnt really go online at tht time and i guess we didnt really call each other... finally, i got back online and tried calling him and yeah... we don't really see each other much but w/e... so we were all fine.. until the second day we talked... i spoke to my friend in the morning and she told me he had asked her out and they had been going out for a month.. i was happy for her, and i hope that he was treating her better than he had treated me when we were going out... bu then that afternoon i was talking to him and i asked him how she was doing and he said "i don't kno, don't care" and im lyke.. so who are you going out with now? .. cuz i was really confused cuz i thought they had already broken up.. well he said that he was going out with no one.. and he kept insisting that he hadn't moved on since the day i dumped him... his girlfriend, my friend came online at that time and i showed her the conversation.. she got soo mad and i asked him why he lied.. he gave me a bs excuse and i got mad at him.. then the pain started
for the past week, he's been telling lies about me to my friends, and spreadding all kinds of rumors, my friend asked him y he's doing that and he said "she gets herself into things.. she deserves it, she did the same thing to me".. well i told him that it wasnt true, that shawn (my ex) didn't even ask me if i had a new bf.. and i did.. steven... and steven was in my profile and i told shawn about him.. brittany (my friend) wasn't even in shawn's profile and he lied, saying he didnt even talk to her in "forever".. so he's been at my neck for the past week, and steven helped me out alot, but today.. he suddenly got mad at me and we broke up, he blamed me for everything, just like shawn did, but the thing is, shawn and i went through alot, he cheated on me, i got mad at him, steven and i were perfect.. i've been working alot lately, and he said that i dont have time for him, but the thing is i talk to him for at LEAST an hour every day.. isin't that enough?? so now im here, trying to babysit 2 kids and get work done.. and my friend anna is here helpin me out too.. and i feel like im about to go crazy with everything thats going on.. how do i get rid of all of the problems that are hurting me the most?
if anyone has the patience to read this, thanks.. if you can give me some advice double thanks..
yeah well i gotta go feed these kids.. pce
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