*relief..... Options

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so there is this girl whom I have had the longest crush on, since 9th grade and now we are 11th, but the thing is now she has a boyfriend and her boyfriend is one of my best friends so we all see each other often. the thing is, me and her r very much into music and like I find it very... Idk when we sing together, its like... better?.. so its kinda getting harder for me to improvise around my friends cause like i dont want any drama to happen ,so I just act like I dont like her, and many people believe i dont, its like I become bipolat in front of my best friend and it becomes harder for me to have like an actual conversation with both her and my friend, cause I feel like sh*t. is there any way, do you think that I could like relieve myself cause afterall they are the closest friends I have and Im happy for my best friend because they talk about how they want to get married and stuff and i dont want to ruin that for them, and I think it will be weird if I told her cause like then we would never be able to hang out, cause it would just be too awkward, its like every girl I like, who shut me down , we arent friends anymore, so I would rather be friends with her then being awkward with her,cause I hate awkwardness, so yea what should I do, should I just keep improvising and see what happens or take the risk of telling her?

... I actually kinda feel better about talking about this, I never told any of my friends this cause it would spread, but no one from CB goes to my school, and you guys are some very smart people so yea. I posted it :], but could you please be serious in this thread? :]