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[stephinika]

: You're such a cute, little sweetheart! I wish there was a way to keep in touch cause honestly, I think you're an awesome kid.
: I miss you...I know you'll get through it fine although I have to admit...thats a lot of work.
: I want to bitch you out SO BAD.

[transcendentalis...]

happy two years and five months, bitch! i love you :D get practicing, we'll party next week ^_^

[Jinny]

You know, I don't care if you go tonight. I don't even want to see you anyway. I don't care at ALL.

[pandora]

i feel like i've really f**ked up.

[transcendentalis...]

the job wasn't any good for me. it had shitty pay, shitty hours, and a wild variety of people, but i miss you.

you're the only decent, experienced, and understanding person i had there. you're the only one i'd put in extra unpaid hours for and the only one i'd even get up at 4 AM for. you're the only one that listened to everything i said and really made an effort to be there and to check up on me regularly. you're the only one who always comforted me whenever i was upset about anything, and the only one that could make me smile no matter how angry, sad, or avoidant i was at the time.

i remember the second day i saw you, i said i didn't want to be building anymore relationships of any sort with anyone because i didn't want to have to lose people anymore, or the other way around... and then you gave me your phone number and said "call me and we'll talk about it." what a dumb-ass move, huh. but i've kept that note you gave me since, folded exactly the same way you folded it yourself.

i remember your first day - closing alone, even. i was already off the clock and was checking up on everyone else's work, and it looked like shit. i remember both of us staying an extra hour just to get the place spotless, and how surprised g was the next day. i remember how while we were both cleaning, amy and ayo just stood there with drinks and talked and asked me why i was cleaning. "because i don't want him bitched at the next morning, because he's a nub."

i remember the ihop incident, the pickle incident, the christmas incident... has it really only been two months? it seems like a whole lot longer.

i'm going to miss your voice, your smile, and our forever-long conversations. although it's comforting to know that i can call you anytime, you being a couple buttons away still seems like too much.

[fameONE]

My godbrother advises against investing too much human emotion into anything or anyone. I love the guy to death, but I don't agree with that. No matter what the outcome is, the journey there is well worth the smiles, the laughter, or even the potential heartbreak. I'd take his advice, but he's never been in love and he can't relate to how I feel about you.

[Naomitron]

I know it's time to pull the trigger and cut the last tie that could be holding us back, but I'm struggling. Why? I don't understand it, myself. If I could I would just get the damn thing over with and move on, but I refrain from doing so. Why do you still such an affect on me?

In case case, I think today is the day. The longer this goes on, the more absurd it becomes. If you won't do it, then I will.

[reallyhotguy]

you have no idea how much i truly love you. I really hope u will make the first move. Why is it always that guys have to make the move, even though everyone knows that it is the hardest we have to do?!??!

[*paperplane*]

wtf, mate?

[Naomitron]

Even though I was shaking like a leaf, I'm glad you approached me about it last night. If you hadn't, I wouldn't have been able to do it. Things are getting better. It doesn't hurt as much, but I don't know if we'll ever be able to be friends. That would be a BIG step for me. Monumental.

[xTINAA]

^Hey pretty, let's catch up sometime =)

I'm very excited for our anniversary gift that I'm going to give you. I hope you like it. Only thing is that you aren't a very mushy or sentimental person so I'm not sure what your reaction will be. I'm also so glad that we started to work out. I need someone to push me to work out and you're just that person. Love=)

[iDecay]

: Wow, you totally contradicted yourself. You said you don't like people who are all that and then you go and say you're better than me because you're a year older? Congratulations, you are an idiot!

: I'm glad we took some time to catch up. I've missed you.

: What is this? "I'm not going to ditch you for stupid boys." What? What has been going on for the past few weeks, hmm? You two disgust me.

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[fameONE]

This particular feeling of loneliness is foreign. I've been lonely before because many situations throughout my life, recently even, have caused me to question friends, family and every relationship I've been in. Still, I'm lonely. It's foreign and unfamiliar, but I comprehend it fully. As I write this, I can muster up a gratifying grin in good spirits because you pointed that I have a pretty firm grasp of who I am, and this is indeed true. Just check the writing forum of fameONE, and you'll know exactly what is is I'm referring to.

Back to the matter at hand, I'm lonely because I know that I now have the support, the comfort and the stability I've longed for. These are the same desires that I've always felt would never actually be granted to me in my lifetime, which, up until February, I thought would come to an end, in James Dean fashion. My entire train of thought has changed completely, and its benefiting us in ways that will never be obvious unless you get down and dirty, and being to pry.

You have become my positive addiction and I'm suffering a withdrawal. Me being constantly worried about your physical and emotional state makes it harder. The loneliness is far from a burden to bear, but knowing that you're struggling in any way, and I'm not physically present to be of some help leaves me feeling like I'm not good enough. The self doubt always subsides when you express your love for me, and the beauty of who you are is enough to keep me warm through these nights of loneliness.

I'm not sleeping tonight. I love you.

[weed]

___: i love you. weve been doing this for about four years now and it seems like the longer we do this the less they like me. i hate your mother she is a stupid bitch, but you know what they say you dont marry the man you marry the family and if your mom & pop dislike me because i am not of the same religious belief as you then im stuck because i wont pretend to be something im not. We'll see where the wind blows.

: f**king bitch i hope you catch fire and get hit by a bus.

[JokeInsideJoke]

: DID YOU KNOW IVE DREMPT OF YOU FOR FOUR NIGHTS IN A ROW? DID YOU KNOW THAT I THINK ABOUT YOU CONSTANTLY? DO YOU KNOW THAT I SEE YOUR FACE IN MY MINDE EVERY NIGHT BEFORE I SLEEP AND FIRST THING IN THE MORNING AFTER I WAKE UP???
WELL GUESS WHAT ...I DO?




opps caps lock

[xhidethedetails]

: I wish you could step back and see how much music means to me. Stop trying to be like me, its annoying. Your turning fake and it's sick. You take the bands I like and try and make them into your own. You think you know everything about them and honestly I wish you'd stop trying and be your own person. Go back to listening to your crappy mainstream rap and stay out of my life. Because your getting nowhere and your trying to be like a person you'll never be. STOP.

[iDecay]

: Good luck today. I'm not sure if you went yet, but I'm pretty sure you did well if you already did.

: No, stop trying to one-up me. You may be older than me, but that's the only thing you have on me. You're still dumb as hell.

: I'm glad we "talked" about this. We never really worked out, and it's good we're with other people now.

To me: Haha, wow, my last message sounded like I broke up with someone and got with someone else.

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Mark: HI!

[markmejia]

Tina: Hi!

[stephinika]

: Seriously. You're a nice guy but you talk way too much and its getting kind of annoying.
: Cheer up emo kid! I know you can do it.
: Your bed is deadly, haha too comfy!

[transcendentalis...]

be safe on your trip <3 i'm surprising you with dinner when you get back! and your hugee college textbook, haha. gahhh i'm excited... today was pretty cool, glad we both got some work done? love.

[fameONE]

I urge you to be as patient as you possibly can be. The aspects of my job require a lot of extra hours, and the gravity of the information thrown at me also requires that I'm in a secure area. No cell phones. The internet I use won't even allow me to access any site that isn't secure; no CB, no Trig and no fameONE. I'd imagine that its going to be like this in Iraq, just with the threat of the obvious nearby. The difference will be that I'll have constant internet connectivity and a means of talking to you. Baghdad is also in a more convenient time zone, oddly enough.

Normally, I'm so busy that I don't have time to think about anything else. Whatever personal issue or joy in my life is swallowed whole by video-teleconferences, combined logistics planning, deploying support troops and preparing for a potential major war in the pacific theater. You are truly the light that shines in my life because in the midst of all the madness, while I'm up to my neck in politics, I think of you. I'm able to relax and look toward the future, knowing you're waiting for me at home.

I can't imagine how hard this must be for you, I really can't. This may be a little ill-timed, but victory is only earned in blood. Bad analogy. My point is, the work we put in now will prove rewarding when the time comes for it. The love I have for you is greater than I can even express, and I will never let you forget that. Not even for a second will I allow any doubt to arise in this relationship because I want your heart to be at ease. I love you.

[pandora]

I could lie and say that I've learned the real value of patience over 21 years. But, see if you think about it, I've really jumped the gun on life. I've foregone paying my dues in school, and strategically placed myself in a professional position that, for most people, requires a lot more experience than I actually have. I've been cheating through life all so I skip the part where I have to work for years under the incompetence of others more "superior" to myself. That's not to say that I regret my decision to jump straight to Free Parking without passing Go. Life was easier there, the pay was good, and I got a few bragging rights to boot.

Yes, the time we spend apart, not being able to even talk to each other is as difficult for me as I imagine it is for you. But while I may have skipped all of life's pleasantries before, I've never done so without some kind of reward in the end. I always get what I want, and right now you're it. So in the end, the physical ache that comes from my desire to be with you or even just hear your voice at times... it's all worth it. My frustration now comes not from the distance between us, but the thought that my feelings for you may not have been clearly conveyed through my lack of words. It's always easy for me to say what's on my mind if it doesn't leave me vulnerable in the end, and I'm afraid sometimes that my silence leaves you wanting, or in doubt.

Hopefully this settles that.

[xquizit]

Jeremy,

You suck.


Diego,

You suck.


Andrew,

You super suck.

[S-Majere]

Two years, love. Then I'm marrying you.

[absinthe]

: I was really happy when you txt'd me last night. Unjustifiably so. This needs to stop ... but I don't want you to stop ...


I have mental problems.