best friend Options

[letsgoxdisco]

Right now I am 7 months away from graduating.

The summer between my 10th & 11th grade, my best friend who is a guy I got really close. We were almost inseparable, everything was just peachy, lol. But it really was wonderful.

Then in November or so, I ended up thinking of him as more than a friend, and I really thought he did too. It seemed like there was something more between us than that. It wasn't just me who noticed it, other people did too. So I thought maybe there could be something.

So in March, I told him that I liked him. He never gave me an definite answer to how he felt. He said he didn't know and that if something were to happen, it would. So I waited, and pushed it out of my head for a while. But I thought eventually something would happen.

Of course, it never did. And I got pretty bitter. Big, no HUGE mistake. So, things between us got pretty bad. It never ended either. It went on for like 6 months. I don't even know how we are still best friends.

But we still are. However, things aren't the way they used to be. Naturally, I understand that. But I wish they were so badly. So much that if I think about it too much, it makes me sick.

I want so badly to be close to him like we used to be, and I don't know how. I know that it might not ever work out that way, but I still try. I try to do little things that are kind, in hope that he might still notice that I care a lot.

It's just time is such a huge deal. In 7 months, I probably won't see him again for a long time, and I just don't know if I should try so hard when it seems like we will be parting forever in such a short amount of time.

HELP!! opinions, anything. It's all welcome.

the only plus side is this would make a terrific sonnet, which I have to write for english anyway.