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[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cb diary,
what an AMAZING day!

:)
bia

[weed]

Dear cBd,

This is officially the longest i've kept a journal type thing. There are so many things left Un-said. Things seem to be getting more and more complicated for me. I'm not sure i even want to be in school anymore, i feel like this is something that im doing to please other people.

If it was up to me id live in a shack by the beach with Miguel and live happily ever after. But sadly that is simply a dream. I'm really stressed.

I really need to start doing something to consume my time all i do all day is sit home, watch t.v eat shit on my laptop and when i have class, go to class. Other than that i look forward to the days that i get to see my heart .

There are things we still haven't talked about and i'm honestly scared to ask or talk about. Eventually i know I'll have to ask questions and get answers. Even if it is just for closure.

My mom hasnt even been bugging me lately. Im sure she has a pretty good idea as to whats going on with me. I just want to run away.

till next time cbd.

EDIT:
march 8th 2008

I barely thought of miguel today, want to know why? because i saw him yesterday and he called me this morning.

I really want a doberman. My mom says theyre aggresive dogs that look like theyre on crack. Basically cracked out rotweilers.

Today is emanuelle's first birthday party and i wont be there to celebrate because my boyfriends parents are f**ktarts. I love him too you know. Well not that they care how i feel.

I put chocolatechips in my pancakes today and they were amazing! I lah pancakes. anyways ive got homework. bye.

[dustbunny]

CBD:

my level of unproductiveness today is repulsive. i literally sent a whole day down the drain doing..nothing. im insanely bored and insanely annoyed with myself and my inability to just finish things so i can get out of the damn house.

and there's a new litter. I want mocha back though, more than anything.


I CANT BELIEVE TODAY JUST WENT DOWN THE SHITHOLE. pissed at myself definitely.

[aaayotiffany]

dear cb diary

today was pretty good. i have four extra days to revise this huge paper. then in english, my teacher really tried my friend, lol. it was hilarious. lunch was decent, randomly picking on my friend as always.
however, math was BORING. the man kept talking - blah blah blah, and since he think he's cool, he gives us his bad jokes.
afterschool was straight. a couple of my friends and i are organizers for this international feast we have for the freshmen and seniors. its going to be funnnn. so we got together to discuss decorations and how we're going to set up the 'buffet line'.

but other then that. i am so relieved that our major papers have been turned in. i don't really care if i get the diploma or not though. as long as i know i did my best, i'm straight. grad nite 2008 is april 26, fbla states is april 27 - 30, and prom is may 30. i am excited.

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cb diary,

wow!
i passed my driving test but the thing im happy about is that i get to ride the bus tomarow... i know oxi moron (sp) but im happy beacuse i get to see jackson i am so happy :)
and today i got some great make-up from Mary Kay. i am officaly in love!


XOXO
Bia

[superficial]

Dear createBlog Diary,

So guess what?! My package finally arrived! It arrived last night (with my sister) and I wore them today. I only wore one of them though, because with both of them on, my ears look really weighted down. :P. It's so awesome!! These earrings are totally worth the wait.. Okay, not really. I'm just glad that it didn't get stolen or something, and that my babies are safe and sound. ;).

Next week is going to be extreme cramming. I have events on each date. >__<. Monday I have a concert for the mayor, Tuesday I have a track meet, Wednesday & Thursday I have to do concert practice for another concert upcoming, and finally Friday, it's another concert! How awesome is that? :). I really hope I don't get extremely exhausted from that week. This week is extremely tiring too seeing as though there is tons of stress on getting the yearbook done. T__T. All this and I can't even get enough sleep myself. I just wish that there were more hours in a day in which all this could actually be crammed and where I'm able to get enough sleep. :x.

My teacher today told me that Daylight's saving time exists is because of shopping and money. She told us that people wanted more people to go shopping and etc, and since it's bright outside longer, people would want to go out after work or after school. It amazes me on how this world is living on materialistic things. It's just absolutely ridiculous. I can see why my town is going to be raising their prices on living and that if you're not rich in this town, you won't have houses in here in 10-25 years. Good thing I won't be in this dumpster of a city. >__>

I saw something that made me extremely pissed off. I mean, if you're going to try to make me like you, at least don't make me jealous in which I'll want to stab your guts. Seriously. P is really pissing me off right now, and when he was hugging ____y, I just cringed. I wanted to kill both of them. It's not that I like him anymore, it's just that I don't want anyone else to have him. Oh wells, I hope he goes back to his pathetic little girlfriend. HAVE FUN MAKING E-BABIES, BITCH.

/endrant

[stephinika]

Dear cB diary,


I'm starting to care less and more at the same time. This is stupid. And my profs are idiots. Enough is enough!

I hate this. I don't know how I'm going to get through these next few weeks.

[tokyo-rose]

Dear CB diary,

I finally got a haircut after four months. It's not as thin as I wanted it to be, but it's okay.

I hope I get Photography as my art class next year!

[weed]

yo.

got a new job. mmhmm not much left to say. i talked to judy, shes a !@#$%. enough said.

later.

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cb diary

---- likes aaron!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! omfg!!!

eeewwwww

[carolannexbh]

Dear CBD,

I'm really trying in school. Why cant she see that? Just because I'm getting a D in one class doesnt mean I'm not going to get into college. And the quarter isnt over yet. I can still pull that grade up. I just hope she doesn't say anything else about me not being on the honor roll last semester. It really pisses me off how she does that. UGH!

[Teesa]

dear cb diary,

i want to go to sleep, but of course, i'm on duty and our hall director found out that we weren't doing our required three rounds each night (omg, what a tragedy) and is making our SRA do rounds with us. so my last one will end around midnight. this is so silly...like we need another babysitter. we're good RAs and i don't care if i sound conceited because we are and that's the plain truth. i do my job well and i honestly care about it and doing three rounds does not affect my performance whatsoever.

anyways, had a mid-term, test, and a presentation today which i'm happy to report that i did well (hopefully) on all of them! it was so funny when i went to turn in my ancient egyptian civilization mid-term..he said my handwriting was so beautiful, but small so he told me to write bigger. first, i was like WTF?? there was only fifteen minutes left and no way to re-write four pages of work. hopefully he was just kidding :) i also got a 91 on my french composition after getting 2 78s. i've concluded that even though this teacher grades harder than ANY teacher i've encountered, she is seriously the best one.

so, i'm excited to go home tomorrow morning, although i'll be studying basically the whole day due to another mid-term on monday. but i'm happy to get together with some old friends for dinner. and of course, see the family. i miss them so much all the time, it's so weird. anyways...i tried to study tonight, but not much really happened

there's still like 45 minutes until my last round. ARGHHH, i just want to get it over with.

~teesa

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cb diary,

today is good.... LJ is being a total moron, but, Hey, what else is new?
i need to go to B&N and get a few more books so that im not TOTALY bored.
i f**king broke my nail and it is pissing me off
im really thirsty too.... hmmm


XOXO
bia

[lkajsfklajskds]

Dear CBD,

I'm tired. I got HW to do. My mom's coming home, soon . I have to go to my dad's tomorrow. I have to drink milk, but i dont want to =[. I'm wondering if i should still try to participate in the competition...I'm watching House. I miss being 5.
I have to pee.
Bye.
Lalalalala,
Shrima.

[TaintedSakura]

Dear CBD,
my life sucks :D and it's my fault.

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm so glad I didn't have piccolo today, or else I would've really @#($*@)#$ someone.. and we didn't have a lesson today at SS, so yay! and today's our one month anniversary <3

[stephinika]

Dear cB diary,

This weekend was amazing...I can't wait until summer time. Seriously though, it was just amazing. I had so much fun.

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear CB diary.

i am so sleepy. i wish i went to bed last night insten of staying up to watch the Cutting Edge 3. i KNEW i was going to pay for being so totaly infactuated with hockey/skating.

my thumb hurts like shit and there is soemthing in my eyes.

time for LUNCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yay!

hugs and kisses

Bianca

[flutterby88]

FINALLY! :D!
-finally, a fantastic performance. what a HUGE difference it can make to warm up individually and then go over it as a group. and to take in the moment! it was so much fun and i'm so proud of us and i love L, she's amazing and this is all possible because of her. I'm finally starting to approve of A for her. sure he's not everything she is, but he's supporting her through and through which she deserves
-finally, he noticed me. i wasn't wrong! i knew he liked me, and lucky for me he was the only one brave enough out of three to do something about it, and that makes him the most deserving. he's so understanding, and so amazed by me. i can't wait to see him in two days. if only i didn't have so much to do before then. but that'll make the time before then spent productively. finally! i knew one of them would come through. and it's better i learned this way that the other two wouldn't actually end up being what i need them to be. and i know me and him won't last for ever but for now this could be really good for the both of us. please please please don't let me be doing this for the wrong reasons though, cuz HE doesn't deserve that.

AND! two shows this week! i love any time i can spend with my ensemble outside of class. today's classes were amazing!!! that's creation for ya. our work is gonna be so good.

and three days till i move!!! i'm excited for the new area. and that they all want to help us so badly.
ok... i'm EXHAUSTED, but i really have to do this research. so i'll get on it. AHHHHHHH so good, i feel good:).

and i just feel like screaming out: my boyfriend lives on a farm!!! how cool is that? lol i'm so retarded, but that's what they all love about me they say... speaking of which. he may be acting like a douche right now, but i gotta thank him for inviting me into his life like that and introducing me to all these great new friends. i'm sure it'll pass, it was just a bad move on his part.
ok, time to really get down to homework

[weed]

CBD,

people on cb care too much about what people on the internet think about them.

just a thought.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

Damn, why is this girl trying to bring me down? All I did was tap her (no pun intended..) and she starts all this shit? It's one thing to flirt with someone I've been crushing on for a while now, but telling everyone I beat the hell out of her and have anger management problems? People BELIEVE her? What the f**k is up with this? I know I'm bigger than all of this drama, but it is just flat out annoying. I can't talk to her because all she does is ignore me and her friends won't talk to me either because they think I'm a monster. WHAT THE f**k IS WRONG WITH THIS BITCH?

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cb diary

i just ate chocolate.... yum

~B

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm going to kick his f**king ass tomorrow.

[xTINAA]

Dear cB Diary,
I'm very stressed out right now. I'm incredibly broke...How on earth am I going to be able to pay all those fines and bills? No one can help me, but more importantly I don't want to be helped. Then I'll owe them the money they let me borrow, and it'll just be a vicious cycle. I don't know what I'm going to do? My credit is already shit because of those bills that I can never manage to pay. Why do I have so much debt? Why am I so unlucky? It's been over a year now. The interest is so high on payments that even if I put down $100, that doesn't cover ANYTHING. Ugh, I'm so stressed and tired of worrying about money. I need to win the lottery.

[JokeInsideJoke]

dear cbd,
i have to tpe my essay
i dont want to
if i didnt like to write i would kill myself