Why do I feel like this? Options

[JonathanK]

Well my ex dumped me a couple of months ago for a guy she met on the computer in england.....ENGLAND (we live in canada) she was my first gf and first person i really had feelings for. We did everythnig together, for once i felt like i caught my big break and i was on top of the world. But as soon as i got to the top she dumped me and i was standing in the rain watching my life fall apart. I felt betrayed in every single way especially when she lied about why she broke up and did it the week my grandfather past away, and when girls say they wanna be your friend still that is total BS tell them to literally f**k off. But now iunno i know i should just get over her but I still have this "hate" I want...revenge....or something to satisfy all the pain that she caused me. I don't know what to do, i thought i was over it and could control it but now it only seems to grow. I know that this sounds wrong but i seem to be near the end of my rope soon. i just want this to stop. I do alot of physical stuff like weight lifting and everything. After she broke up with me i just took it quitely and when i found the real reason i was torn and most people i think would have screamed at her. but i didn't i feel like i just need one good yell at her or something to vent then never see her again. like tell her *U f**kin ruined my life, you lost your shot with a great person. you took everythin i gave and did for you for granted and you stuck your foote up my ass, do me a favour dig yourself a whole and hide for 2 months and see who will miss you.....nobody, cause no one cares about you. you're a mean and nasty person with no feelings for other people now f**k off and leave me alone and grow up for once*...but i never got that shot too, i just have this compressed anger i guess.