Frustration, |:< Options

[mytangerine]

been seeing this guy, for about 5 months now but we aren't dating/planning on dating since i don't want a relationship. [i know, i know, some of you will be like, "what's the point of seeing him if you don't want a relationship out of it?", the thing is i'm horrible with relationships & they worry me so i think we're better off without dating]basically we could be considered boyfriend & girlfriend except it's not official & i guess we can see other people if we really wanted to. but for the whole of our 'relationship' neither of us have wanted to see anyone else since we care for each other so much. however, he is in a situation where a girl desperately wants to date him, but he has me & is [or was; i don't know anymore] really happy about having me. this is where things get frustrating; he tells me he will not get fed up with not being in a relationship with me all the time & then just last night he's like "i don't know if i'm wasting my time waiting for you" so now i'm like what the #%@! but then again, what did i expect? i do not own him, he's free to do as he wishes & i can too. it's just how can he go about saying he is so happy with me & he won't get fed up & then he goes & says that? oh! & not to mention he's been paranoid that i've been seeing other guys just because i told him that people are interested in me just to be honest. the thing is, i never see these people because i'd much rather be with him. i am loyal. BUT, at a football game the other day, i find him cuddling with the girl that i know he would totally date. and they CONTINUED cuddling in front of me. & he has been telling me how i have been hanging out with these other guys when i HAVEN'T! i think i had every right to be mad. but then again i didn't? it's all too confusing. basically i don't know if i should just move on. right now i'm just such a wreck. i love this guy. but if it makes him happy to be with someone else, i guess i would allow it, but it would make me incredibly sad. and i don't understand why he's being like this. any advice will be nice.

delete this topic please; it was a dumb misunderstanding that has been sorted out.