behind your actions, the mysterious law ... Options

[demolished]

Do you believe in a form of objects/beings that reflects your actions? The concept is similar to karma, "everything happens for a reason", and fate, but that's not exactly how I feel.



During the last two years of school (freshman & sophomores), I became an unfortunate person by choice. I decided to slack off, did bad things, and screwing my life. The things I noticed are that I'm not the person I used to be, didn't try hard enough, wasn't being a "student", and always struggling and getting in trouble. There something part of me just wasn't there. Basically, things were just bad and full of suffering. Before the last two years of school, I was a great typical Asian dude. I was striving for what I want, getting what I work for, receiving attention& frame for my achievements, and facing the challenge



Now, I'm turning myself back to someone who is willing to work hard, does whatever to get what I want, and seeking frame for my achievements …. Yadayada something along the characteristic of a successful typical student. I realize, I feel a lot more part of myself and felt the world is connecting me again, fusing me, alliance, and unifying me. As a result, I believe that there are consequences behind your actions, rewards, benefits, and negativity. It's really strange and cannot be explain. Something did change. It takes willpower and faith to change myself for good and becoming a better person. I just feel more fortunate when I work hard for things. on the side note, i was able to predict accurately, become more "superstitious" & able to sense things, and realize things more. it's something like a turning point in my chapter of life.


My life is amazing being two complete person at a different time. People who had alway been sucessful, trying hard to get, and being a typical worker wouldnt experience/realize this, i believe.