my life is falling apart around me... Options

[Watttt]

hey...im a gay guy. im almost 13 and an sick and tired of everything. noone believes me about my sexuality either saying im too young [although statistics show that most gay people have knew since they were younger] or its a phase. wtf? itd been a little more than 9 monthes. i think thats a little longer than a phase in my opinion. my best friends dont beleive me. one of them started getting angry at me the other day saying "YOUR NOT GAY! SNAP OUT OF IT. JUST BE STRAIGHT EVERYONE WILL LIKE YOU!" everyone acts liek its something i get to decide. even worse is the "how do you know your gay question" there is no real answer for that question...its a feeling inside of you something unexplainable. i just broke up with my boyfriend which makes people thnink im straight because and i quote! "well if you broke up with your boyfriend your obviously not attracted to guys duh"...thats bull****. plus its how self-contradictory everyone is. one minute im a total "f*g-head" the next minute im a "attention seeking loser"...i mean wtf? either you believe me or you dont! im just sick and tired of being ridiculed and pushed around...if anyone wants to share their storys or offer advice it would be highly appreciated