He's so cruel. I love him. I hate him. We're just friends. Heartbroken?, Ugh, these mixed emotions are really confusing.. Options

[Jennifer]

I don't know how to feel and simply typing this out may help..

There's this guy, well my ex. When we were together it was like nothing else mattered. As long as I had him I was really alive.

But my worst nightmare came when.. we just fizzled out. It's really hard to explain, we just started seeing each other less due to being so busy, and eventually.. everything was gone.
I was so depressed for ages..

We luckily stayed friends which made me happy, unlike some people who want nothing to do with their ex's. Anyway, about a month after spliting up he admitted to having strong feelings for my two best friends while we were together. That was the most crushing thing for me to hear at the time.. I thought I was his one and only, I guess I was wrong.

Somehow though I put it past me, and we stayed good friends. Even though deep inside I couldn't handle the betrayal.
And now I even feel like I could love him again. And I do. It seems he shows an interest in me again aswell, but he always mentions another girl.. and another

These emotions are really running out and in and I have no idea what to do.

The bottom line is - He's moving far away in only a few days, and it's killing me. This is just .. unexplainable and unnerving and just..