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[blacknailpolish]

...I've changed my mind about my secrets...sorry, telling people things is just kind of a big deal for me...

- I told him I didn't love him anymore, and that was a huge lie. I just wish I'd never told him in the first place, it was one of the few things I really regret, cause it changed everything.

- My autistic sister is suicidal and it's tearing my family apart. I am embarrased to be seen with her and far too critical of her. I know this is why she has tried many times to kill herself and why she's in therapy, but I just can't stop. I know, though, that this will eventually kill her in the long run, deep down. That scares me the most, knowing that I could do that to someone (this isn't me having a big head, the things she says when she talks to herself clarify all my suspicions). Her problems are mine now, and I push my own depression aside for the most part because I worry about her all the time.

I'm just....scared, I suppose. I don't know what to do. Our parents are no help, either. They're in the same place I am.

I'll probably end up deleting this later...

[EmoEyelinerx]

O.o wow, that must be tough^.

[cutey2kc]

I'm a vegetarian, and i accidentally ate meat 1 year into it.
:P

[YAYgummybears]

My secrets?
- I think right now I am one step away from being crazy.
- I've probably cried 30 hours of 50 hours this weekend.
- I still love him. He doesn't understand that. I want to be with him incredibly bad, but I know it's not the right thing. All I can see in my head is our memories together, walking places, him smiling, laughing, sleeping.. everything. I want to be with him so badly and hug him and hold him and never let him go. I love him. But it hurts that it's not the right thing to do. 16 months isn't easy to let go of
- I think I may have an anxiety disorder and possibly an eating disorder.
- I've never been so scared in my life.
- I almost tried to kill myself tonight. That's the third time.
- I want to go to sleep tonight and never wake up again. I don't want to make the decision I have to tomorrow.
- No one will EVER understand how I feel.
- I wish I could save my ex boyfriend's life like he saved mine when I almost killed myself last summer. The doctor's gave him 6-12 months.
- I've written 13 secrets I have down on pieces of paper and I'm going to leave them in places for people to find.
- Someone come save me. I need out of this place.
- I thought I didn't love him anymore. But losing him made me realize how much I DO.
- I don't know how much longer I can block that voice out..
- FCK I MISS HIM AND IT KILLS ME. I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO.

[xtwitchyx]

1. I'm not a virgin.(To this day my family has no idea.) They still think I'm an angel.
2. My ex best friend was a total bitch. She used to pick at me for being naturally skinny which was stupid. Who cares, right? Then she used to tell me about how she would make herself throw up after eating. I gave her useful advice and what not, something a good friend would do. Another time I helped her move in with her dad because her mom was a psycho. Well... She repayed me for all of my helpfulness by telling some scum bag I wanted her boyfriend.(Hell no I didn't! He was nasty in too many ways!) Anyway, this scum bag told her friends (who were guys) and they spent a whole year threatening me and so on. So one day when my ex best friend came over and tried being an ass kisser, I took out a lighter and told her if she ever f***ing came near me again she become a human torch. Then I bitched at her for several more minutes and sent her on her way. I wanted to do more, but homicide is illegal for some reason.
3. I've walked around outside naked before.
4. Gay guys don't turn me on and neither do lesbians.
5. I have a slight case of paranoia.

That's all I can think of for now. I'll remember more later.

[Amaranthus]

I lost my virginity when I was 7 years old with a 9 year old.
True Story

[Joss-eh-lime]

-A lot of the time i think my best friend is a whore and a slut
-I get jealous of people who,even though I would never want to live their lives, have more than I do
-I hate the fact that though every one seems OK on the outside we ALL have issues.
-I'm really awkward most of the time

[RAWRstephishere]

I log onto my friends myspace account daily and read all of her messages.

On one of the messages was on of her friends email and pass word, and I go on hers too.

And they dont know about it.

[alligator]

-I feel like im always going to do something to mess up my relationship with my boyfriend.
I'm scared of losing him because he means so much to me.
and whenever we argue i always apologize about a million times afterward even if its not my fault.

-It's not that my mom and I don't get along. It's that I hate her.

-I don't think my friends really care about me.

-I can't be myself around people because 'myself' is really, really dumb and weird.

-I used to cut. For attention. It's the second dumbest thing I've ever done.

-I have a problem with disliking almost everyone I meet. Especially girls.

-I'm scared I'm going to grow up and turn into my parents.

-I don't like my boyfriend's mustache even though I said I do.

[AimeeLynn]

-I have a problem of "flirting" with guys and when I get them I'm afraid of taking to the next step.

-I hate my job and people in my job.

-My parents and me don't get along at all and enjoy yelling at me everyday. My dad gets violent.

-I get depressed easily. I think about killing myself.

-My family is near to bankruptcy but my sister, me, and my brother go to one of the most expensive schools in my state.

- Don't hang out or have real friends.

-I have "middle-child-syndrome".

-I'm not smart, even though people think I am.

-I'm not innocent ate all even though everybody thinks I am.

-I say "I'm ugly" so people can compliment me that I'm pretty.

- I think "making out" is hot and I love doing it.

[LadyXTor]

- My friend tried to commit suicide for the third time this morning. I don't know what to do because I'll miss her a lot if she's gone.

[YAYgummybears]

- My friend tried to commit suicide for the third time this morning. I don't know what to do because I'll miss her a lot if she's gone.

thank you.<3
You have no clue how much that means.(:

[RAWRstephishere]

-I'm scared I'm going to grow up and turn into my parents.

I feel the same way.

[Joss-eh-lime]

-I'm afraid of the future & I'm constantly thinking "what if I'm not successful?" "What if I end up alone?" "How will I pay for college?"
-I hate myself for not being able to fix everyone's problems.

[YAYgummybears]

-I'm afraid of the future & I'm constantly thinking "what if I'm not successful?" "What if I end up alone?" "How will I pay for college?"

Omg, I feel the same way. I thought about the future for real the first time yesterday and I was so terrified. I have no clue what I want to do, where I want to go, anything. I'm so scared I'll end up unsuccessful and/or alone.

[YAYgummybears]

I'm with the guy I chose to be with. But I don't know now. I feel so horrible. He gets mad at me for things that I do, but when he does them he denies it. Or Like, his bestfriend did one of the things he got mad at me for, and he didn't do anything. I don't understand it. Now he's friends and hanging out with a girl that almost caused me to kill myself last summer. He's with her right now. He says they're not friends.
And I've never not believed someone so much in my life.
Its not that I'm being a controlling naggy bitch girlfriend either. He said he hated this girl and that she was a slut, bitch, etc. and that he never wanted anything to do with her again.
She tried to get at him RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME last year. We were laying on my bed and she asked him for a kiss. And she was holding his hand. She would always tell me how she wished she was with him (Even though she had a boyfriend) and she wished it was my boyfriend instead of hers the day she made out with her boyfriend. It was horrible. But he doesn't even care anymore.

I don't know if I should be with him or not.. my heart is tearing apart.
I stopped talking to my ex for him again and it hurts. I can't get him off my mind. I miss his hugs.


I'm horrible.

[mszxkay]

i still like my ex

[*ersatz*]

My family and I are on food stamps.
Sometimes I feel like I want to kill myself; not because I'm really sad or anything, I just want to know what other people would say, like all the people who treat me so badly. But I wouldn't be able to know if I did it, so there's really no point.
Sometimes when I'm driving on a bridge, my mind tells me to drive off of it just to see what would happen. Like, I want to. Again, not because I'm superdepressed. I actually don't know why. It's kind of morbid.
I allow my friends to treat me badly just so I can have some friends because I don't think I'd have that many if I didn't allow that.
I'm trying to train myself to have limited emotions so although I would rarely be ecstatic, I would also not be sad.
I love it when I get higher grades than other people, even on one test. Like, I don't want to get an A so I can be proud of myself...I want to get an A as long as other people don't.

[anydaynow]

I have literally no life.
I'm a lot more boring than I seem.
I don't really care.

[no-name]

-The guy that I like is 26. I am only 17.
-I am afraid that he will find out that i lied about my age.
-I am into bondage and my mother does not know about it.

[twotootz02]

i think i love me boyfriend of only one month.

i cut myself once, nvr told anyone!!! not even my best friend.

[YaGurlSukedMe2SL...]

I love my job.

[fugu]

1)I jumped off a diving board into my school's 10ft swimming pool during freshmen year, without knowing how to swim because of a silly boy that I liked held my hand and asked me to try it. Everyone just watched as I bobbed up and down three times before doing something about it. Luckily I was saved by the boy that got me there in the first place.

After I safely got to the side of the pool, only then did my teacher throw me a life saver.

2)Tried cutting vertically on my arm with a shaving razor after some unhappy events with an ex. Did it relieve pain? No, instead I felt retarded as I went "OH MY FLIPPING GAWD MY ARM IS BLEEDING WTH AM I DOING THIS?!!". I felt so ashamed so I covered it and told this as a silly story at p.e. I had a few girls that had cutting experience show me their horizontal cuts and tell me "it's okay.." and hug me at P.E.

Huh, a ring of cutting girls hugging from having common ground. I found that funny. It was oddly reassuring even though these girls actually enjoyed cutting while I did not.


I like to think my life is filled with fasinating events.

[*Girthy*]

-I have a problem of "flirting" with guys and when I get them I'm afraid of taking to the next step.

[LovableGullible]

im planning to get married next summer with my boyfriend of 1 yr. and a half in vegas or just have a small ceremony wiht his family. Not mine. yeah im 18 and we know we'll can get through anything and be together forever. <3
no one knows except me, him, and his mom. <3