life is tighting its hold on me. tighter than a pair of my little sister jeans [which look great on me bye the way] Options

[Watttt]

i came out. simple as that. i guess thats where it all begins. of course with school gossip everyone knows now. but you see everyone thinks that im just trying to get attention. thats one of my problems. the others are the beatings, the verbal abusings, ect. but looking back i guess where it really began with a girl. a girl who a first i befriended, admired, and always looked forward to seeing.[i never liked her liked her by the way] well one day she told me she was gay. i didnt care. she's my friend what should it matter? i didnt think much about it. thena few monthes later i started havinfg like wet dreams...only with guys.[i was on bottom ] i started loosing interest in girls and that kind of stuff and longed to do stuff....with guys. so eventually i figure out im gay [or so i think...] i try to keep it a secret but like i said word gets around fast. idk maybe i am fooling myself. maybe i am trying to get attention without meaning to....nothing makes sense any more....any suggestions comments or questions?...