Dear cB Diary,, Createblog Diary no. 10 Options

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Sigh. Yes, they're letting up and yes I could stay out until 12 tonight...well, be home by 12, but still. I reaaaally wished I could've gone clubbing. And to Greg's last night. But Whistler was amazing and tomorrow night will be sweet...sucks I have to work Monday though. Gah. Not cool. Time and a half at least though...
Unsure about Amanda's stagette though...do I want to sleepover or not? Hm. We'll see. The wedding is coming up sooo quickly though so thats exciting. And I really hope July 14th works out. *crosses fingers*

[smileeetina]

Dear CDB,

It's been 15 days since I last saw my boyfriend, and 15 days into vacation. Vacations fun! But yeah. They say distance makes the heart grow fonder. But !@#$%&), I miss him! I miss him so much it hurts. Its july! A neww month in summer. Yay, I just love this season. I got dark from the beach. But oh well, I love the beach. I like my boyfriend too. Puahahaah. Oh man, I miss him.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Ok It's 9 in the morning.My mother already started with me.I actually went to sleep last night I was tired.But I woke up around 1 first and she comes in my room and tells me shut down the computer because I fell asleep.Meanwhile she tells me that my hair was burning like I was bleeding or something and I felt liquid but it wasnt blood nor water.I dont know what It was but still.I was like can you shut up and leave me alone for 5 damn minutes my head is burning.So she said oh well go to sleep then.THATS WHY I WOKE UP YOU DUMB TARD.Then she like 15 mins ago was like omg im tired of waking up to see you up.What you wanna wake up and see me dead,good then im not the only one who feels the same way about someone else because I would love to wake up to that.I saw david,kept slapping my hair.Bastard.they still want me to go to the beach with them but nah.Too much eye sex between a certain someone.Anywho like its so early and she's already starting her bs.I wanna go to my dads job but then there is this old f-ck who doesnt like me and stays cursing at me because I turn on a channel that he doesnt want to watch.OK im sorry im 15 im not gonna waste my life away watching a stupid base ball game.

Oh and when she made me go to the store.She was like since your up go,go to the store and get a coffee with 2 sugars,a newspaper and water.I told her ok thats all for you and your legs are not broken so you can go your self.So she said she is sick of my mouth.T o o b a d.Im sick of hers too but you dont hear me complaining that to her.Bored and stuck at home till 5 o clock.Can someone just say summer is over and school started >.>

-Leon

[YourSuperior]

Dear cB Diary,

I'm sorry, but people just need to grow up and just be glad that they even have parents to put food on the table and clothes on their back because they'd be LOST without them.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

I thought I wouldn't have to be a rude a-hole but maybe someone should stick their f-cking feet in my shoes for 15 years and see how that f-cking went before they judge.Next time try not to be so obvious.Don't bring the drama where the drama will be ended quickly.Because you got a lot of missing facts.

I miss them,they are coming back soon.Evelyn made me laugh so it stopped me from about to flame a little someone.But anyway im bored.very tense too.I wanted to see my dad and my step brother.And engrid and omar.I wonder how she is doing.Maybe I should give her a call....

-Leon

[flutterby88]

i'd love nothing more than to beat those two up. f**k YOU BOTH. grrrrrrrrrrrrrr that's all i have to say to them

and wow, 3 sure is my lucky number. if i'm ever in doubt again whether anything can REALLY happen in three days, now i know:P. guess i underestimated my attraction:P.

and omg i'm so in love with him! best anniversary dinner ever. i love him so much, and i'm so thankful how understanding he is. i still feel guilty though, getting so much male attention. *MUAH*

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

Last night was pretty damn fun I must admit. I missed her so much, its great to have her back. But yeah, with Whistler and then all that...and the weather, it actually feels like summer even though it's been summer for me since April...so thats kinda nice. But yeah, last night was sweet. I hope the 14th goes well...so far so good. *crosses fingers*

[cheerbee07]

Dear CB Diary,

In the words of Noah..."I just don't know anymore, man."

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

It's just funny how one minute I feel like I'm actually heading towards something in my life and then the next, I feel lonely and lost. Tried my best to keep busy and now this. This whole month I've actually had to give up friends I've known for years. Sometimes you just don't need a person in your life anymore because all they'll do is try to take advantage of your relationship because it's been so long and ultimately hold you back. Feel like crying but I don't want to do it by myself so I'm being strong. For my mother's and my baby sister's sake. Speaking of my sister, her 18th birthday is a little more than a week away and I still haven't got started on her present. I hope she likes it because knowing me it'll suck even though the idea was good. Still try my best though because she deserves it. She's not a baby anymore, she's a young woman. I see now that in the end, even though he left us, we were so much better off without our father in our lives.

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

I officially suck at playing with upperclassmen. Whyyyy WHYYYYYYY MEEEEEE.

[MrStrife]

Dear cB diary,

Today was loads of fun. Yes I did intrude but f**k it man I wanted to have a good time. My first time on the Superman and Batman ride, it was so great. Yes, I was nervous but then I kept thinking f**k it so what if I do die? At least I'm going to try. Then I realized aint nothing to do but to do it. Kept walking around the park with my head up high, loved it. Confidence is great I tell you. There was a Marines challenge where if you did 20 pullups you get a shirt. No hesitation just went up in there and started. Maybe too fast actually because I only did 17 but the motherf**ker said all the way down and I know I did 18. Still, though it's not about the prize, it was just that I'm so sick of being just 2nd best. Everybody all rooting for me and knew I can win and be number one, but it's like a part of me is just never good enough or at least not yet. I refuse to believe it though because I am a winner, will always be one in my heart, and yes you lose some to win some. I know there'll be someone out there better than me but I am f**king awesome in my own right. Shit I cry when I win. Later on though, I solved a few riddles at my sister's bf? apartment. Now I think they all understand how smart I really am and it's not like I'm a showoff or know-it-all, so that's why they're so surprised. I guess today showed me that I am living my life the best way I want to and that I am unique. Also showed me that I don't want to settle for less than the best and have to work hard to be a winner. Sorry for overload diary but I had to vent.

Peace

[flutterby88]

tonight was SOOOOOOOOOOOO much fun!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm still hyper from all that coffee:D. met up with B and A for sushi and had our girlie catchings up. GOOD TALKS:). good times. so funny.... stealing the receipt... and the octopus, oh god that was priceless. LOL oh b. omg this caffeine isn't gonna wear off for a while, i'm laughing at EVERYTHING. then improv waS HILARIOUS. T and Z were there!!!!!! and same with C!!!! such a lovely surprise that she came!!!!!!!!!!!! hope she comes more often. and D was there:). good crowd, good crowd. J's laugh was killing me and Z, i laughed so hard, it was especially funny tonight. and I emailed L, things are looking good! driving home was fun, but man it's hot. gonna hit it up at the beach with those two soon, i'd missed them:). it was so fun hanging out with them tonight. good times good times. i hope the next two days don't drag, cuz they're my last two and i don't wanna spend 'em being reminded of him! i just lost the game. TTYL!

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

I am so ticked right now. I hate this. I hate bugs that bite me. f**k. My ankle is so f**king swollen and painful right now and I have my dance workshop/classes starting this coming Monday...UGHHHH. This sucks. And I was supposed to beach it today because it was PERFECT weather. Absolutely perfect. Godammit. This had better get better fast. I need to be able to dance and go out. I hate this, I hate this, I hate this.

[elayohjay]

Dear cBd,
i hope he's having a fantastic fourth of july over there. because mine was spent just thinking about him. i hope when he comes back from washington safe. he wants to go on a date. i hope he still wants too. basically, i just wish he'll come back still saying i love you :/ gah, boys.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

Getting ready to outside with evelyn.Hmmm updates,lets see . . .Haven't fought with my mom In a day or two can't remember.Hmmhmhmmhm where are we going to go is the question.I told joe,lexy,and evelyn another part about me.Finally got that out of me.Just one more part I gotta tell evelyn then she will know me almost completly.Though I do not know how i am going to have that kind of strength to come out and say it so easily like i said it to joe.Kristina on the other hand,needs to come back i miss that boobie<3 its not the same walking around and getting cap.blast without her.

Yesturday was fun well,until I got a little sentimental when I got home.But I needed that talk with kristina.She's my true best friend,she told me to shut up because she said It sounds like I have a big chance with ____.I rubbed ____'s back,and neck.Shared another icy,and more.It was good but I can't keep fooling my self.My name is always in someones mouth.And only god can judge me.

But anywho that little stalker is still stalking me.Still wants me,an d wants to pipe me.You're ugly,Im not the finest thing in the world but I say the truth and no other way.You say you dont give a damn but look who's being fake.Reading all my post,keeping an eye on me,I'm not your property and never will be.This is something you can't have so get over it.

Anywho.Tomorrow I hope my dad comes.Because he said he wasnt going to work for 3 days this week.Hmm maybe Tío louis will drop him off to see us for a bit.Who knows.Bleh I'm really dead right now.Bored.Really really bored.Hmm hmm hmmmmmsssssss.Shakalaka O: im bored!.Oh yeah almost forgot I'm finally getting my own A.C for my room next wed. I'm so happy :D.Which means we gotta re-paint and do my tiles over before putting it in or after.Im gonna move my comp table to where my tv is and move my tv to where my comp table is at.My burro thingy or w/e its called Is gonna be put by the tv.My bed will go change angle.And my bike gotta get out of my room.Gotta clean my closets out.So much to do :D I dont know why im excited.I'll probaly procrastinate the whole time.

I M B O R E D.Betch <3

-Leon

[Jinny]

Dear cB Diary,

It's so hot, sticky, humid, and disgusting outside. I just want to stay in my house forever! I feel dizzy and I want to throw up when I'm in the car. I just don't want to move.. but I have my stupid tutor today. He's so hard on me and gives way too much homework He's mean and boring and.. strict! And he doesn't have a sense of humor and all he does is study study study.. He's super smart so my parents ALWAYS compare me with him and it's so annoying

& I want to go to the Cheesecake Factory for lunch right now ...

[iDecay]

Dear cB Diary,

So, summer's been good. Really good. Fourth of July was rather boring, but it's all good. Tennis is awesome. I'm finally becoming friends with the whole team - the girls at least. I'm too shy around the guys ( ... Except for G ) Best friend, doi. It's really nice to get away from last summer.. No more of well, the hurt and the pain. It's still there, but this is really helping. I'm glad for that. But. How do I let go? How am I going to break this promise of mine for me to be happy?

[Chicago]

Dear cb Diary,

i still love her a lot, but i dont know if i should make the move yet.

[jeSs1cA]

Dear cB Diary,

I can't believe I've survived this long without talking to you. I really hope you're having fun, but not too much fun to the point where what happened last time is going to happen.

[pinacoolada]

Dear cB diary,

W gets back tomorrow! I missed him so much . I'm literally counting the hours; so excited.
My old worries are catching up to me. I don't know how to make it go away, but I will. I won't them ruin it this time around.

[flutterby88]

last day of work here at best buy! it was really fun:), i'm glad i was here for a couple months. but i'm definitely glad to leave and enjoy summer now. i'm so proud of myself. i'm learning how to tap and how to drive just like i promised myself i would. and i'm in singing lessons again! but this is gonna kill me, what am i gonna do come september? i'll ask around i guess, i'll have to find someone new. makes sense for now, she's downtown and so is dance. fits for summer, but not once school starts. i'm gonna ask T where she takes her lessons, cuz she says she has competitions too. I could always ask L, be honest with her and just tell her i can't afford it. but trying it for once month would be a kick-ass experience cuz she's so professional. it'll just suck if my new teacher isn't half as good. i just wanna perform again, not just for dance. i'll ask around. don't wanna go back to M cuz it wasn't challenging enough. we'll see we'll see. argh this is gonna kill me. i wish it was more affordable, cuz i don't mind travelling all that way if it's only once a week. but i don't think she does competitions anyway. grrrrr. well i won't worry about it for now, cuz i know i'll have her for a month. and then i'll see if i can phone up T and see if she likes her teacher. ok, deal. i'm loving downtown:). too bad i can only take classes there in the summer, cuz it's just too far. but it's a nice way to get a jump start on the rest of the year, cuz it's so fast-paced there:). i won't worry about it. i'm sure there are plenty of competent teachers her in Poco.

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

So things are certainly looking up. My foot is much better, thank god and should be okay by Monday (I hope). Today turned out to be a really special and amazing day. Thank you Larry, and Happy 9 months again.

[Amay]

Dear cB Diary,

I don't know what to do. I have no one to talk to. I'm confused. I'm lost. I think I'm going to burst.

[iGio]

Dear cb,

I thought nervous breakdowns and panic attacks were the same.I had both but I get panic attacks that make me lose my breath (dyspnea).I had one friday because of everyone.The rumors,the questions,the bashing,the taunting,the teasing.Everything.I want to be with ___ badly.I wanna tell stephanie that too.I want to feel like I can trust her.She's my homie for life.But I don't feel like I can just tell her anything.Especially what I need to tell her.She wouldn't freak about one part but me telling her about liking ___ i think she would go crazy.I mean,If i tell her.What then?What happens,Will she ban me from seeing ___ anymore.Would she tell ___.I just wanna know what will happen because I dont wanna ever be able to not see ___.

My mom knows already what I have to tell stephanie.Joe does,evelyn,kristina,lexy,ed.they know.I hope I can tell her tomorrow.And I hope ___ is ok.Seemed really down today.I hope i dont have another panic attack.The dyspnea within the whole attack gets worse everytime.Let's see what happens.

I gotta start getting my resume done for a job.because next year my mom is moving and im not going with her so Im getting alot of money from her.But I still gotta find somewhere to live.Because Im not going to live with my dad,too strict and its on the other side of the bronx.I cant live with my cousin jessica because she lives 2 blocks down from my dad and my aunt is like kinda strict too.I just need to plan out finding a one bed room apt.Find a full time job.Maybe use the money im getting for home school?That could help because I am not about to drop out.Hmmm so much racing through my mind especially ____.and we need to go clubbing.I wanna go out and drink and have fun.So much to do.better research now.

-Leon

[*stephinika*]

Dear cB diary,

I can't get last night out of my mind. It was amazing.