rapture/failure, my sad song Options

[ryfitaDF]

I howl at the moon like a wolf
But I lust for more than fresh blood
It’s a thing that everyone wants
But only the ingrates receive

…And I beg for you
I beg for you from dusk to dawn
I grovel to fate for your hand
It’s to you I belong
And it’s all I know anymore
Just the want for your want
The want for you
But in your heart I am long forgotten
So close yet non existent
Anymore
What I once had
Is what I will kill for…

I’m too lost in your wake
I’m still in disbeliefe
I’m still in a smoldering rut
Trying to claw my way out
Of the loss of you
As near as my heart
But now gone forever.
Once a soul on fire
Now laying, dying, in flames

I stand here, alone
Abandoned by design
Sun sent illumination
Manuscripts shine
The truth of the matter
Our two souls entail
Praying for rapture
Destined to fail

This girl is not grey
But blacker than 2000 nights
Put together
The needle and thread sewn it tight
As it did mine to you
But not you sewn to mine
Just a frayed tangent lost
in the shadow of the divine

I stand here, alone
Abandoned by design
Sun sent illumination
Manuscripts shine
The truth of the matter
Our two souls entail
I’m praying for rapture
But destined to fail

As a bug to your boot
Was as I to your love
Left my heart in the hand
Of a meat cutter’s glove
As a grain of sugar
To your mountain of salt
I need not you convince
Me that I am to fault

I stand here, alone
Abandoned by design
Sun sent illumination
Manuscripts shine
The truth of the matter
Our two souls entail
I’m praying for rapture
Destined to fail
So I stand here without
A shoulder to cry on
Too living to die
Too dead to move on
The truth of the matter
I scream to entwine
With your heart but, of course
You’re too great to be mine

I’m a failure!