what do you do when you are stuck in between the two? Options

[asianxphunk]

im not going to tell you guys the whole story. even though i should.. but.. hopefully you guys will understand enough with the information im giving you.

theres one guy.. lets say Guy #1.. well we've been on a break for about almost a month.. and ive been with him for about a year and four and a half months.. the reason for the break? well.. he wanted his alone time to do whatever he wanted.. i guess you can say his "man time". and i gave it to him. oh yeahh and i love him. but.. there are a couple problems with him.. he is hard headed and stubborn. he's always right. yup. and.. he does things that he doesnt notice. =/ but.. i know he loves me back.. just doesnt know how.. or at least be good. but its been more than a year.. and he has gotten better.. but.. its hasnt been much.. BUT he's my first lovee. and ive learned to love our differences.

and Guy#2 is this wonderful guy from Texas. But use to live where i live now. He's understandable, kind, sweet, extremely funny, and has been there for me every step of the way.. and he totally fell for me.. and.. im slowly falling for him.

and theres me.. a girl who is too paranoid and is the worse at making decisions.. scared.. weak.. but have all the motivation to live on.

the deal is.. #1 is confusing me.. and i cant seem to let go.. and i dont know if i should.. eveyrone is damn sure that i should. cause.. im just going to keep doing this. cause with #1 ive been through 7 break ups.. but im so confused. hes so confused. he doesnt know what to do. he says its over... then he loves me the next day.. and so on and so forth. #2 cares for me so much and says i shuldnt be going through this.. and hes winning me over. cause i do deserve to get better. then.. #1 punches #2 infront of me.. and i cant believe it.. #1 starts screaming.. "YOU TOOK HER AWAY FROM MEE!" cause for the past month... its been so hard being around him without being sad or mad. so ive been hanging with #2 cause he cheers me up. atfer that happened.. its been so hard. i dont know if i should let go.. or if i should.. i love him a lot.. but maybe this might be good for me and him.. but its gonna be so hard seeing him heartbroken or even more heartbroken.. or with another girl.. i d k what i should do.. #2 is the greatest to me.. but i love #1.. but then it might not work out anymore. but its not that i need to pick. i jst need closure.