I wanna get over this girl!, It's complicated... Options

[MarcoDeSanctis]

Ok, so I'm about to throw myself out the window...
I'll go slow and write it in steps because whenever I write about this, it gets so long and confusing, people don't get what's wrong.

I am leaving the country in 2 months (late February, early March).

It's more than 12 hrs of airplane away.

I really like this girl.

It's crazy, cuz I didn't notice her until she said my name in a cute voice, which lead me to believe she liked me.

I like her, cuz she's into the same activities I am into (more specifically, soccer).

One day when we were doing a project, I was on the PC and she grabbed my hand on the mouse and moved it to a link...so she wanted contact, I guess, since she could have just as easily pointed to the link.

I am way to shy to to ask her out, cuz I fear rejection and being ridiculed in school for it.

What I fear most about asking her out though, is that she might say yes, and then we'd have to break up when I leave, and hurt her too much.

Hence, Ive come up with a solution, forget her, but I just can't. Everything keeps reminding me of her. She's also really good at catching your attention cuz every 4 seconds on AIM, she comes back from away, then goes away again with a diff away message.

Point is, I JUST WANT TO FORGET ABOUT HER, but I've realized it's impossible almost. All that helps me is getting drunk, and that's not healthy!

PS: She knows I'm moving, and since then she's slowed down on the talking to me...so idk if she's trying to forget me too.