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[nightacer-x]

uhh remember the other time i posted on me liking a guy senior? well, there's more stuff troubling me now. you see, my close friends are going nuts over him too. but well, they don't know that i like him. they just think that i find him cute. so we all gush over him etc. thing is, they don't know that i've been in contact with him via text messages. so actually i know a lot of stuff that they don't. but i just pretend that i've no idea too, when actually i do. i feel like some total bitch keeping this from them. half of me wants to tell them that i know him but the other half of me stops me from doing so.

i feel like crap whenever i think about it, like some bitch. but if i tell them stuff about him and his number.. my chances of being with him is like zero? they're better looking then me. so i'll lose out in this area. oh man, i don't know what to do. somehow or other, i feel that if i tell them stuff about him and his number, i'm throwing away my happiness?

HOW?

i hate this. going against my conscience and everything. HELP!